Reaching out

[Syco]

Hi I've been sitting at my computer for an hour or so staring at this page that says sign up and I hope it won't take me as long to post this I don't really know how this go's and plz forgive the grammar and there will be no real structure to this as it's just a jumble in my head and I'm trying to me sence of it

idon't want to sound like I'm just "complaining about my life" that's basically what people tell when I try and talk about this but I need to talk to people and I don't know where else I can go without getting prescribed drugs or being told to suck it up but over the past 6 months I have become incredibly obsessed with the idea that I'm not living in my actually reality everything has changed I used to enjoy my job my partner and my life but I woke up one morning hating everything and everyone I pick fights with my partner over nothing and will keep it going till she walks out I'm driving her away and don't know how to stop it brakes my heart every time she walks out but as soon as I calm down and she comes back I push her away by starting a fight it has got to the stage she has moved out why am I doing this to us.

[Zeal]

Hi, and welcome to the forum 🙂

I'm glad you signed up - that takes courage, particularly when you are frustrated and confused by negative emotions. Being able to let your thoughts come out freely is helpful, and is what is so great about this forum.

It's important that you seek professional help. Making an appointment with your doctor (GP) is a good first step. Explain to him/her what you've written in your forum post. They can guide you, and might refer you to someone else for more personalised help. If, before your appointment, you would like to speak with someone understanding, you can call Beyondblue's 24/7 helpline on 1300 22 4636. This number can be called for any reason, and it doesn't have to be an emergency.

When you are feeling relatively calm, tell your partner that you are seeking help to improve your mental health. This may help her see that you want to get better psychologically.

I hope something I've said has been helpful. It would be great to hear back from you 🙂

Best wishes,

Zeal

[White_Rose]

Dear Syco

Hello and welcome. It's good you have found this forum and had the courage to write in here. Thank you for telling us your story. I can how confused you feel by this situation with the tree and what appeared to be a blackout. I can why you became scared.

I take it nothing like this has happened before so you don't know how to deal with it. Well I would be scared too.

If you had only spoken about the difficulty getting out of bed, fighting with your partner and bad dreams I would suggest this is depression. However the blackout sounds far more serious and as I am not a doctor I cannot tell you what is wrong.

Mental illness is still a taboo subject for many people. I think attitudes are changing, but slowly. This means many people will run a mile if you say those words. Because they have no understanding it's easier for them to fall back on the standby comment of "just get over it" or "what have you got to be depressed about?" Another favourite is "We all have problems, get on with life". These comments are not helpful for you, but worse is the way it makes you feel, as though it's your own fault.

Well none of this is true. Any mental illness is as serious as a physical illness and needs the same medical attention. Going to see your GP is no different than going because you have the 'flu and need a medical certificate. I suggest you make a long appointment with your doctor and copy and paste your two posts and give them to the doctor to read. It will be the easiest way to start the conversation. Your GP will take it from there.

I see you are nervous about medication. Your doctor may ask you to take a medication of some sort. I don't know. If this happens and you feel a bit reluctant, then ask questions. What does it do, will there be any side effects, how long before I see an improvement, how long will I need to take it? I'm sure there are more questions to be asked. Don't be afraid to ask.

If you doctor wants to refer you to a specialist, then go. There are specialists in all sorts of fields so don't be put off by what sound a strange name. I will give you a couple of numbers in case you start to feel worse before you see your GP. Lifeline 13 14 11, Beyond Blue 1300 220 4636. Both lines are open 24/7.

In the meantime, try and tell your partner what is happening for you. Although you don't have an answer ATM you are in the process of searching. Please let us know how you are managing. We can continue to support you from here.

Mary