Ok here it goes

[Beezy]

Don’t even know where to start.......I’m a long term sufferer of depression, anxiety & ptsd. Had too many counsellors & psychologists simply give up on me as I’m too complex. Was on medication for a short while as a teen and hated it, I am not on any meds and refuse all of them for many reasons which I do not want to discuss. I am a wife and mother of 3 children, i feel my children are suffering as I have little patience and yell a lot as I cannot cope with day to day life.
I have very little support, a couple of friends who have their own families but only one really understands. My husband doesn’t really understand and we have been together for 16.5 yrs, most of the time he criticises me rather than empathising or helping. I’m outcasted in most social groups & always seem to be the one to be kicked in the guts. Just recently I suffered a huge blow with a so called friend starting a business, same as mine, a few streets away from me, she knows mine has been suffering for a few years.
I’m pretty much at rock bottom, with all this virus stuff it’s a perfect cover up to stay home, once things return to some sort of normal I’m worried I will not be able to leave the house to go to gym, kids sports and other activities. Sorry if it’s all over the place I have major anxiety joining and it’s taken me 3hrs to type this

[Sophie_M]

Hi Beezy,
I am really sorry to hear about all these difficulties you've had with your mental health, especially under circumstances that anyone would really struggle to cope with. It must be really hard to deal with all of these things on your plate, like caring for your family and running your business, and it seems like that you are also feeling quite alone and unsupported in dealing with it all.

Please know that you can always find someone to chat with on our 24/7 support line at 1300 22 4636, or our webchat from 3pm to 12am AEST at our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. These services are run by professional counsellors that are here to listen and can help you find further help.

Please also feel free to have a look around the rest of the forums...the forums are a place for people to share their own stories and struggles, and you might find that reading them you will feel a little less alone, and even find something that might bring a smile to your face.

[jack_c]

You're a fighter.

I think we are all proud of you for staying safe and still being kind. I suggest talking to these counsellors 24/7 or the online chat from 3pm to 12am. It helped me in the past and I'm very grateful. I respect what your saying and understand what your going through and I'm here whenever you need some support, I'm a friendly guy so don't be afraid of any judgement from me. I strongly recommend meditation on Smiling mind, It's one of the best places to just relax and be peaceful. I empower you to say to yourself 'are these thoughts helpful, if not I don't need you'

Kind Regards,

Jack C.