The warmest of welcomes to you at such an incredibly challenging time in your life.
From my own experience, I think life would be a little easier if someone had told me from the beginning 'There are many different facets to you. Some have already come to life, some you might have to bring back to life and some are yet to come to life (you'll meet with those ones in the future, down the track)'. To add to that 'With some aspects, it pays to have someone who knows how to lead you to connect with them in ways that work or are relatable'.
With the 'different facets or aspects of self' take on things, I've found a number of people (myself included) who love certain facets of themself yet can't stand other aspects that they find themself living with. While the pessimist, the critic and the hopeless aspects of ourself can be hard to live with, they can also become depressing. On the other hand, if there's an adventurer in us, an aspect of us that loves to wonder and research and a facet of ourself which is longing to express some form of creativity/invention, these parts may require extra mental and/or physical energy. Without the energy they can struggle to come to life.
With some things, not all, I find it can be more about generating energy more than will power. Do you feel you just don't have a lot of energy right now? If this is the case, do you have any ideas as to why? Could blood tests be revealing or perhaps could the issue be with a lack of quality sleep or maybe a lack of the kinds of people in life who are able to energise/inspire/support/guide you, especially at this time? What do you feel is lacking, more than anything else? Could it perhaps be about being in the habit of doing stuff that doesn't promote a lot of energy and now it's become a struggle to get out of that habit or those habits? I know, I do tend to ask a lot of questions. The quest for change, for some form of evolution or progress, tends to come with a lot of questions. If you're questioning, you're on the right path.
