Hi, I feel like I've given up hope in life and our medical system. I'm
just laying around the house and just waiting, waiting forever for
appointments. I've had a long history, since childhood of depression and
trauma. From growing up without a mum, ...
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Hi, I feel like I've given up hope in life and our medical system. I'm
just laying around the house and just waiting, waiting forever for
appointments. I've had a long history, since childhood of depression and
trauma. From growing up without a mum, to childhood abuse, and neglect,
and a major loss at 25 of my sister and Nephew in a road accident, then
my only support person, my dad moving to Perth. Along with lots of other
things, too many to go into. I was also diagnosed with osteo arthritis
and bone degeneration in my spine, hips and neck in my late twenties.
Over the years I've worked in many jobs, including my main job which was
as a personal care worker for over ten years. I cared for a man for over
4 of those years and then became unwell again. I have always been unwell
but had it kind of manageable until then.I was a single mum of a teenage
boy at the time. Had to quit my job and the last 9 years have been a
constant struggle. My son left, I became homeless because couldn't
afford my rent. Cut a long story short after lots of moving around,
finally got a housing trust unit and after dealing with two and a half
years of constant stress while living there, dealing with drunken people
out the front of my unit constantly and all that goes with that, dealing
with junkies, and eopke jumping my fences, being bashed twice while
there, and numerous letters to council, HT and contacting police. I
succumbed to the stress and gave my unit up. I also have CPTSD, fibro,
CFS, osteo arthritis, and other ailments. Depression, anxiety, and I've
been trying to get help for all this for over about 3 or so years. It's
been a nightmare to say the least. I've had to apply for my second
exemption for centerlink so I don't have to deal with all their
bullshit. I've had at least 6 jobs in the last three years and every
time I've had to leave either due to stress or chronic pain. Not to
mention the chronic fatigue I suffer all the time. I was trying to get
my last DR to help me to do the things I need to apply for the DSP but
after her total lack of incompetence, I left there feeling deflated and
so depressed I just gave up. Over several appointments trying to explain
to her what I needed her to do and feeling like she's got dementia or
something because she can't remember one thing from another between
appointments. I honestly felt like life was a waste of time.I've tried
to Pur in a complaint about her but had no response. I've found a new DR
who seems nice but now I'm waiting for appointments. I've been referred
to a pain clinic at the hospital which is different to the pain course
they recommend you do which I've already done. They sent me a
questionnaire which I answered the 1 to 5 questions with the highest
rating for everything because that's how I feel. Thinking they would see
how depressed I am that they would be in touch soon. After a few weeks
of no response I called them to find out I had to wait because there in
the middle of moving. It's been a couple if weeks since then. I feel
like all these systems they have in place that are supposed to help
people with depression and pain are useless. I pretty much have no
family except my son, who is 23 and struggling with his own issues. I am
in so much pain 247. I have constant numbness in my arms, feet and pain
everywhere. I've gone to the hospital before and been sent away. I've
called lifeline and felt completely dismissed and was told to call my
DR????? What a joke that is. So sunk back into complete despair. I feel
like our systems are a complete joke and wonder why there is so many
people committing suicide because when you need help it's that hard to
get it that hope flies out the door like a bird. I've pretty much given
up all hope for my life improving because really no one listens anyway.
You get a ten minute slot to try explain it to your DR, which I have to
pay a $35 gap everytime. When your on jobserker payment that's almost
that hard to have. I feel so sad all the time, don't even want to get
out of bed most days..I don't see the point. I feel like no one really
cares and our medical system is a joke. I hate life right now and can't
see an end to all this any time soon. So just laying around wallowing.
Our systems are laughable and I wish I could run away and be a nomad in
the bush. It would be more enjoyable than this!
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