Hello BeeHappy and welcome to the forums,
I'm glad you joined us. Your story is one unfortunately so many of us here can and will relate to.
Being lost in the chaos of your mind and trying to just survive often means we isolate ourselves. I do too even now after years of learning and managing my depression.
Have you had any luck forming any new supports offline? Sometimes people are unwilling or unable to forgive. They take our disappearance as rejection and are hurt. But there is hope. You can still develop friendships and self care.
First of all you are in good company here. If you feel alone just join in on any thread that interests you. We're all peers here so any advice or friendship you have to offer others is just as valuable as others who have written here for a while.
Secondly have you checked out any of the offline support groups in your local area? Library notice boards or any mental health services such as women's health centers are a good place to start looking for classes or activities. I have found groups like this are great for making friends who understand and have patience for you.
I hope you can write more and join in. You are very welcome here.
Nat
