New here and lonely

[Gerryo]

I live alone in a rural area.

Being an older male it is hard to make friends when by oneself.

Also I have been diagnosed with cancer and my prognosis is rated as poor. I spend a lot of time at hospital (300kim away) which involves a lot of driving. I do not have a carer or anyone to help me.

I am posting really to put myself in the picture of where I am at - to put into words what I feel and what is going on in my mind.

I often wake up during the night and my mind seems to race around going over my health issues.

I do try and be positive but find it hard to get off my backside to do things that interest me, but once I do I get satisfaction from doing whatever it was.

I guess my biggest fear is of dying. I do not feel ready yet but there is nothing I can do except to try and get the best I can out of each day.

I have read some other's problems and know that my anxiety is small compared to the problems that some have.

ok , that's it for my whinge - sorry not to sound happier but wish I could put feelings into words better.

Gerry

[Gruffudd]

Hi there Gerry,

I'm glad you found Beyond Blue and wrote this down. Welcome. Your story is just as important as that of anyone else. I would encourage you to find the community section of the forums, we like to break the isolation down there talking about anything and everything. The cafe isn't a bad spot to begin shooting the breeze. All the other parts are there for you as well, I'd encourage you to put something in the chronic illness part if you want to talk about cancer, there are people here who have similar experiences. And of course you are welcome to reply here if that is the comfortable thing.

I live in the country myself, and know first hand the travel. I'll think of you as I head out there next.

Rob.