hi Shazzydoll, what you have been through is far too much for anybody, so I understand that the conditions you have can well be justified, but by saying that it doesn't mean any comfort for you.
I am pleased that you have found someone who loves you, but this won't stop any of these conditions from happening, maybe it may lower the extent of how bad they occur, but they haven't gone away and that's what you want, so that you can get on with your life.
You may feel that the jobs you are applying for know of what has happened to you, so then you could be blaming this for not getting any response to your resumes, I realise this, but the jobs you apply for maybe in desperation and not what you are experienced in, and I mean no harm by saying that, but the market is full of people applying for one job.
What I would do is go to an employment agency where they will single out jobs that would suit you, but can I suggest that maybe a part time job maybe your best choice to start off with so that you can settle down, bnecause remember you have a lot to cope with.
I am concerned about your SVT and wonder if the doctors have been able to stabilise your heart beat, plus I hope that you are able to see a psychologist which you can do when your doctor puts you on a 'mental health plan' where you are entitled to 10 free sessions to see a psych.
I really hope that we can hear back from you. Geoff. x
