New and Anxious

[LostSharni]

Hi. I’m new

I’m not really sure what to do, I’m a mess of feelings right now. I can’t get motivated to do anything I called in sick to work today and I’m honestly not sure how I’m going to go in tomorrow. I just want to run away.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi LostSharni,

“Mess of feelings” says it all, really. I felt that was a very poignant way to express your emotions...

I hear and understand that you must be swimming in emotion...I know what that can be like (in my own little way), so I’m gently reaching out to let you know that you’re not alone and that we are here listening...

Also, I think it’s okay to call in sick some days. I feel self care days are important too...

Would you like to tell us a little more about yourself/what else has been happening lately? There’s no rush or pressure of confuse to reply, but if you ever want to talk, many of us are here reading along...

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper

[Mrs_Jackson]

Hello I'm new also. I'm hoping I find some people to talk to.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi to you too 🙂

You’re very welcome to talk to us here. It’s great to have you on board...

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper

[LostSharni]

Hi Pepper and Mrs Jackson.

Thanks for reaching out.

There is so much happening in my life right now. I recently got engaged, my fiancé was just made redundant at work and I’m feeling a lot of self hatred about my body and my weight due to a bad experience at the doctors recently.

I feel anxious about not knowing what’s going to happen to my little family (my partner, myself and our fur family) about being a plus size bride and my declining health and how I’m unable to get real support from unbiased doctors.

I feel depressed that I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything - because I’m depressed.

All I can do is cry, abuse myself and lay in bed. I went to work but went home early because I had a breakdown after finding out my partner was made redundant at work.

After being diagnosed with osteoarthritis last year in my spine my work capacity has been greatly reduced. I’m always fighting with work to be allowed to sit when I need and the double standards held by them against what I’m allowed to do and what able bodied people are able to do. So if I’m not at work I’m generally at home trying to get relief and rest for work the next day.

I just feel really lost. I don’t think I can go out and get help. Partly because my doctors think every problem I have is caused by my weight and also because of previous bad experiences with unempatheic psychiatrists.