Hi this is my first post and its a bit scary, to make the step from living in a world where my anxiety and depression has a stigma attached to one where I'm hoping to feel accepted for what I 'have' because I'm finally realising it's part of who I am. I have an inherited poor serontin uptake, and a variety of crisis through my life , the last few years I've had a lot of work related injuries in a very high stress work environment, which led to me becoming suicidal and being diagnosed with Acute stress disorder. This led to me changing workplaces and various other changes in my life. Lots of Psychological help plus drug increases but eventually getting to a point where I was able to start getting myself on a wellness schedule/ practice whatever that works for me, my GP's and Pshychologist.
I'm currently going through a bad patch and knew I needed time off work to self-care and couldn't get into either of my normal GP's , who know my history and are great. So had to see the doctor available, who was listening but not hearing me,at all. she was was more interested in updating my drug records than reading my actual history even when I refered to it several times. Felt like she was going through the motions and ticking boxes. Luckily I had filled out your K-10 and printed it off to take with me and she took far more notice of that than anything I actually said.
Frustrating as all hell, and made me feel disempowered and like a number not a person. So I decided to take what for me is a huge step and join the forum. I'm hoping here I'll feel safe to talk and not feel as much guilt and weakness and a sense of failure that feel everywhere in the real world.
Dont know how much sense this is making or whether it's the right way to introduce myself but I do know it's hard type when your hands are shaking.
