My mental illness is stopping me progress in life!

[Lockyra]

My heart is breaking as I write this post. I just recently withdrew from University foundation studies as it was affecting my mental health as I was struggling with work load having a full-time job, working 12hr shift work, family commitments with 3 children, household duties and making no time for self care or time away from the computer. I was passing very well with my last assignment I submitted achieving a HD for it. Unfortunately I got burnt out and my mental health deteriorated rapidly, I was dreading the process. I had to make the decision to withdraw from my studies and address my mental health. This in turn triggered a breakdown as I wrote the email to my tutors and director that I was withdrawing. It was only then I found out my latest results,which were good, which in turn brought further distress. My point in this post is that my mental health has stopped me progressing in life many times, University studies recently and resigning from a supervisor role for my current job are just two examples. This has affected my outlook on trying to change my career in helping people with mental health. I wanted to try and achieve a degree in social work or become a mental health practitioner. I'm currently hurting and feeling pretty distressed. I'm trying to be proactive by being involved in beyond blue in some form by volunteering or contributing to the community in some way. Its helping with the sense of failure I'm currently feeling! Thank you for reading. 

Yours in health,

Lockyra 🙏

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Lockyra,

A very warm and caring welcome to our forums..

I am so deeply sorry that you’re struggling really hard with your mental health…

As heartbreaking as it was, I think you done the right thing by making your mental health a top priority in your life….I do understand how very sad and unhappy you are but without our mental health we cannot function properly….it’s time now to look after yourself and give yourself lots of self care and love….maybe in time when your feeling better you might feel up to continuing your chosen studies….. (I’m not sure how University works, if that’s possible or not)….

Well done by being proactive and becoming a beautiful member of this amazing community and wanting to help people…. Thank you so much, you have a beautiful heart and soul for wanting to help other people struggling with their mental health….Please don’t ever feel you failed at doing anything…Please Lockyra try to not be so hard on yourself….you done the best you could and honestly that all you can do…..

Thinking of you with kindness and care….I would love to give you a very gentle warm and caring hug 🤗…..

Grandy..

[Lockyra]

Thank you Grandy! 🙏❤️✊️