The warmest of welcomes to you bittermoon 🙂
As you face the courage and grief that comes with letting go of something so significant in your life, my heart goes out to you.
I think when people often speak of courage it's typically associated with acts of brilliance and celebrated heroics. Not often do we hear examples of courage that involve heartbreaking degrees of emotion. It is easy to be courageous when we have nothing to loose. So hard, so challenging, when what we have to loose can involve elements of comfortable familiarity, no matter how destructive. 'I know what I don't want but I don't know what lays beyond that' is internal dialogue that can be either fearful or liberating, depending on how we feel that dialogue.
To know that what you do have is the support of those that care about you here is, I hope, a good start on your path toward change. Being fearless can take a lot of practice before we're able to channel it effortlessly. Practice one day at a time. Btw, if you feel anxious about this conversation with your soon to be ex, imagine this is what courage feels like when it is working up to something life changing. Let it work up and remain true to yourself 🙂
