I honestly don't know what to do to get through each moment anymore. There has been so much that has happened and continues to impact on my life.
My brain is screaming with a million thoughts in opposing directions so I'm sorry if this is just mad rambling,😞☠️
It all began to unravel when my eldest son died in 1999🪽🥀 he was 4
My youngest son was then taken by cancer in 2023🪽🥀 he was 17
My 2 middle boys ( 28 and 32 ) and 2 grandchildren ( 6&7 )all got ripped away on the 20th July 2025 🪽🥀😭
In amongst all of this, I was trapped in a very bag personal situation where was extensive dv abuse which has left me with lifelong injuries, scars and damage. When I finally got out in April 2024 ,it was my boys who saved me - & who unfortunately saw the firsthand proof of just how sick, twisted and sadistic my ex was . Without any hesitation, after a 15hr drive from their home in Qld to NSW they made sure that I was somewhere safe and guarded (they moved me to where they were literally next door)
Now there is no one and nothing left 😞☠️💔 and all I can keep thinking is I wish I hadn't been saved. I wish that my ex had followed through on what he threatened so many times😭
