Just my introduction

[alphines]

Hi. As I'm writing this it is 10:53 pm. I'm feeling down, and I'm not sure if I've truly felt happy in quite some time now. I guess that in the time being, this will be my way to relieve some of that, a sort of reprieve.

I don't know how long it will take until I start to feel better about myself and feel happy again. This feeling comes and goes, but I feel like some day it's not ever going to leave me. I want to be happy, and I'm really trying hard.

I want this world to be a better place, for everyone. No matter who they are, no matter their colour, their religion, their sexual orientation or age. I want everyone to be happy, because everyone deserves it.

I may not deserve it, but I'm working towards changing that mindset.

This is my first thing, I hope you all are having or will have a good day.

[BballJ]

Hi alphines,

Firstly, welcome to the forums.

Well done for posting your story and that is exactly what these forums are for, a space to speak about how you are feeling and get it off your mind and into words which I find helps makes sense of how we are feeling.

There is no time limit on starting to feel happy again but it can happen and like you said, everyone deserves to be happy, this is including you as well, you deserve it just as much as the next person. Is there any reason you are feeling this way?

My first piece of advice would be to maybe speak to your GP about how you are feeling and they may refer you to speak with a psychologist and just see where it goes.

Please, post back as much as you like, we are always happy to talk.

My best for you,

Jay

[jc2000]

Hi Alphines,

I'm a new member too, and it is really hard to write your first post onto here, but let me just assure you that the people on this platform are so kind and considerate and are really helpful. You've also done really well to reach out to try and find help.

It's really good that you think of this space as sort of a safe haven for your mind. But have you talked to anyone in person about how you're feeling? What do you think is causing these feelings?

You said that you're really trying hard to be happy, I feel that way sometimes too, sometimes when I'm feeling terrible I would try and search as hard as i can to find something to make everything better, but often I fail at that and just wallow in self pity and hatred.

I agree with you on how everyone deserves to be happy, and although you may not feel that you deserve it, please trust me (an internet stranger) that you do. the fact that you want people to be happy is enough for you to deserve to be happy, and i'm sure there are thousands of other reasons you deserve to be happy.

I'm glad you came to this forum, I hope to hear from you soon,

Julia