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[Frannie]

So to be factual I'm 66,  highly intelligent but born of elderly parents, only child. Mum had me on  meds from an early age because i was anxious but the best thing i ever did was move out of home to go to uni! Mum tried to stop me doing that.  Dad died when I was only 20. So first marriage - too early and I walked out on him as i was sick of his business ethics (or lack of).  Second relationship 19 years, ended with him having an online affair four years ago.  I kicked him out.  All to do with development stuff (land). So I was saddled with a place I couldn't sell.  All our retirement plans went up the spout .  Under a hardship provision I just sold recently and am now moving. So much stress. So much a holding pattern.  Settlement now end October.  Hopefully a new chapter.  But my wine consumption is bad.  Unfortunately I don't get hangovers so not much negative feedback. But still trying to lose the 4 kg I put on earlier this year with my hip replacements.  I'm normally a really fit active person.  But I'm not that person right now - probably half that person. I'm not happy with myself.

[Sophie_M]

Hello Frannie, 

Thank you so much for sharing all that you have been through. This truly is so much for one person to experience. We appreciate your courage in sharing your feelings and asking for support. It sounds like there are a few changes you would like to make, but might need a little help getting there (which is perfectly understandable!)

We encourage you to connect with our support service, so you can talk with a counsellor 1-1 about what ongoing support could look like for you:
Talk to a counsellor - Beyond Blue - Beyond Blue

You might also find calling Blue Knot is helpful too. They specialise in complex trauma and may be able to provide phone counselling that is suitable for what you are going through: 
Blue Knot Foundation

Our community are always here for you and we hope someone responds to your post soon. Until then, please do something nurturing for yourself this weekend and know that we are here 24/7 if you need to talk further.

Warm regards, 
Sophie M.