Hi, I'm Chris.
Just joined up here.
Have had a long (very long - 20+ years) battle with depression. Recently, I was injured at work and had to have surgery. I had a breakdown in the waiting room at the day procedure centre and haven't recovered. In fact, it's gotten worse. I am extremely depressed and anxious. Withdrawn from my family and friends. Can't answer the phone. Can't go out.
Got an appointment with a psychologist in the middle of next month. That seems so far away...
I have suicidal thoughts, but that's all they are. My wife and kids are my safety net. Even though we fight a lot and my depression, frustration and sometimes anger effects them negatively. Which in turn creates more anger, frustration, guilt and depression.
My doctor is really helpful. But lately my antidepressant medication has been increased and she's also prescribed me some benzodiazepenes so that I can "get a bit of a break from myself".
I don't know what to think or feel at the moment. Just drifting along in limbo. Not working and not going back any time soon...
I've also been experiencingchronic pain due to my hip. Which I'm also waiting for surgery on. My body is falling apart. My mind is falling apart. And my life is falling apart.
I'm lost. Feel lost and don't know what to do or where to go. Just me. Here. In this. Now.
I've got some good friends online that I can talk to. But nothing too deep.
I can't talk to anyone about my feelings or experience. Guess that's what brought me here.
So. Here I am. And there you are.
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