Dear R~
You can see what I believe about being broken in the previous post. All the pieces of your true self are there, and can be brought together with therapy, kindness and support. As with me some things will never leave you, but can be accepted and coped with, leaving you in a pretty good place.
I could never understand why my wife never left me when I was in the worst of PTSD, depression, anxiety and hopelessness. I was so hard to live with , bad tempered, resentful, unpredictable and wanting to be left alone.
She coped. Housework, looking after the offspring, looking after me, all the bills plus going to work. Often wondering if I'd still be alive when she got back.
I did ask her why later on, and she said simply that she loved me.
Many years later I was able to repay the debt by being by her side during a long fatal illness.
So don't worry about being a burden on your wife and friend. It is amazing how determined and compassionate some people are. Plus, as in my case, you cannot see the future and may in some way be able to help them as much yourself.
Croix
