Internal Battle

Littlehorg
Community Member

Hi everyone

first time on this site or just talking to anyone about this really.

I’ve had a rough past 18months but thought everything had started to work out, my partner and I are living together and happy, my father is recovering from an illness and I have a job in a new industry...yet the past fortnight I have been havin an internal argument with the voice of my anxiety.

i know it’s just the anxiety that’s putting the ideas in my head and pointing out my flaws, but it’s becoming such a struggle to fight it, every time I think I’m making progress it comes back louder and more vicious

any hints on how to beat this voice, how to shut it out? I’m so sick of being my own worst enemy and want to be out in the light rather than in the dark depths of the hell that is my internal critic

thanks

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smallwolf
Community Champion
Community Champion

Hi Littlehorg,

Welcome to beyond blue.

Have you ever heard of (or read) a book titled "the happiness trap"? It is a book that should be available in your library in ebook format that gives suggestions on how to silence the inner critic. It is a book that was recommended to me by my psychologist. If you cannot find the book and/or don't want to buy it, there are also many suggestions in thread on the forums on grounding and mindfulness. As far as grounding is concerned though, it needs to be remembered these are somewhat individualistic. That is, what works for one person might not work for you or vice versa.

Two alternatives are deep breathing exercises and meditation. You will probably find information on these in the same threads. As far as meditation is concerned, it is ok if your mind wanders... just bring your focus back to whatever it was supposed to be on after. For example, your breathing.There are also apps you can get for your phone as well.

And if all of those fail, you can always talk to a professional, where you can talk about your worries in a confidential space without judgement. This place here is also supportive and judgement free, but sometimes talking to someone is easier?

From the little you mentioned in your post, there is a bit going on in your life that can make you worry more than you would like, but there is hope, and being able to write about it here is a very good start. I wish you well on this journey, and if you have any questions or want to chat, I am about.

Tim

Thank you Tim, I’ve found an online copy of the book

i really appreciate it

geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Hello Littlehorg, welcome to the site and I'm pleased Tim has suggested this book to have a look at.

These voices that you're having can be associated with OCD where they are often called 'intrusive thoughts' which are unwanted thoughts or images that you find distressing and/or disturbing.

What they are capable of doing is causing repeated, persistent, and unwanted thoughts and another way to help you is by seeing your psychologist who can help you by using CBT.

You will need to get a referral from your GP and you can use the 'the mental health plan', which you are entitled to a Medicare rebate on up to 10 sessions per yer year.

It doesn't matter how well your life is or what you have because if anxiety is present then these can develop.

Take care.

Geoff.