Hi Tiredofthis,
I too welcome you to the community here. Pat has already had a chat with you. I too think it is amazing to read of how you have helped yourself so far. Excellent job with all of that weight loss! Wow. You may be able to start up a thread to help encourage people to loose weight by sharing how you have managed.
Has your Dr talked to you about cognitive therapy at all or how best to cope with your thoughts and emotions? If not then ask or Google Cognitive Therapy.
The main idea is to consider and reason out if your thoughts are real and valid or not.
When you are feeling stressed out, try and take some deep breaths and calm yourself, that helps some people.
Believe it or not, there is self help information available for people suffering from sleep disorders. Look up "Sleep Hygiene" and see if anything there helps you.
Thoughts of dying prematurely are probably very normal. I suppose people just don't talk about it much. As you have already noticed by checking out other posts, so many people have thoughts, emotions and mental health issues similar to someone else.
The more you read, the more you will discover other people's issues and also the ways people have offered help and suggestions.
Hope you find some solutions to the sleep problems. Like I mentioned, do some research and see what yu come up with. I find it helpful to write a list of things I think I need to do the next day, have a warm shower before I go to bed, read if I am not all that tired, and try to think of something to be thankful for from that day.
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools
