I need help please

[Cannotfindadisplayname]

Hi, I'm a late-30s woman living alone. I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and currently being assessed for a personality disorder. No partner, no close friends. I am on medication and regularly seeing the doctor and psychologist. I've done everything I'm supposed to do but I'm just getting worse and I don't know what to do.

[engima]

Hello there... I am new to this forum and your post was the first I have read. This could have been me posting this. I am the same, late 30s, living alone, medicated and quite sick, getting worse by the week. No partner or close friends.

Feels like there is nowhere to turn hey?

Are you like me... so desperately want to give yourself a good chance in life, but completely lost in how to get there?

[Cannotfindadisplayname]

Hi, thanks for your comments. I am desperate and lost yes. I'm totally desparing because I feel like I've tried everything and it's not working and I'm just getting scared now.

[engima]

I totally relate. I watch people passing by appearing to lead normal lives, and I wonder how I got here and how I am going to pull out of it all.

Do you feel living alone isnt helping? I know it isn't for me. To easy to wallow in suffering.

[Cannotfindadisplayname]

The living situation is complicated. I'm doing that thing of intentionally isolating myself so that I don't have to put anyone else through this sht. There's no way I could move in with people right now which is weird because I used to love housesharing.

Are you in a position where you could move into a sharehouse? Or rent out a room in yours?

[Ggrand]

Hello Cannot, and Engima,

Im sorry your both struggling so hard with depression...I would just like to tag your thread Cannot, so I can come back to you easily...I am in a bad place atm, and it's hard to find the right words to say to talk/support and try to help you..(both)...I have read what you have both said and I can here your loneliness and defeat in your words..

Grandy...

[Cannotfindadisplayname]

Well this website was another total waste of time wasn't it??

There really is no help. Doctor, drugs, psychologist, 'friends', hotlines... there's nothing. I give up.

[Ggrand]

Hello cannotfindadisplayname,

Im sorry it's taken a while to get back to you, The people on these forums are all struggling with there own mental health problems.

I can relate to part of your life. I'm in my early 60s, live in a fairly isolated village alone..I lost my husband 5 years ago..I have one friend here a lot older then me... my family are all hundreds of kilometres away from me and to msg me is to hard for 2 out of 3.. I haven't seen my grandchildrennfor over 12 months now,Myers I feel completely alone..

CFADN if it's okay to shorten your name...I'm wondering if you meditate at all, the best way I manage my mh is with distraction, mostly I listen to a instrumental and select one instrument and follow it right through, as well as distraction, our mind can only think of one thought at a time, by doing something that we like, it takes our mind/thoughts of our depression..even internet games, jigsaw etc...

Please don't give up..I would like to get to know you a little better if you want to...post as much or as little as you feel to, looking forwards to hearing back from you..if you want to.

kind and caring thoughts.

Grandy..

[KittyCat23]

The hardest thing about depression is the hopelessness that becomes overwhelming at times. I've lived alone for a couple of decades now and am recently staying with family, which is a big mistake, because I just get judgement. The long and short of it is that no-one can understand depression until they've suffered it themselves. And at the risk of giving you some bad news, there isn't a lot of help I'm afraid. The problem is medicine doesn't understand depression either and well psychologists just push the latest technique your way when what you really want is empathy. I've followed all the well meaning and [I hope] well researched advice of my psychologist and am just as in a bad a state now as I was 3yrs ago when I lost my mind. In fact the depression side may actually be worse now. Techniques are just that, techniques not cures. Pills? Tbh I'm not really sure what they do although I've taken them as instructed. I think of depression like some cryptic maze and they only cure is to find the way out yourself. I like to think it serves a purpose in our lives although I have no idea what that purpose may be. This forum is probably the only place where you are likely to find others who understand what you are going through, but no-one here has the cure either, unfortunately. One day I promise you, I'll figure depression out and then I'll share it with the world. But until then, we just have to cope day by day.

[Cannotfindadisplayname]

Does anyone else have difficulty staying away from other people?