Hello Modest
Wow, I can really relate to you, when you said you want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world. Well I have felt that, so so many times, I couldn't even count it. For me it feels so safe in a ball curled up. And literally I do hide. So you are not alone in that feeling.
I am also self conscious too, along with feeling awkward, like you don't know how to hold your body, almost stiff like. It's awful.
It's great you are trying to help yourself. I know what it is like to want to give up too, just to find relief from everything.
Have you looked around here yet on these forums and on the website yet? I have been here for two weeks, and still haven't looked all around. I think this website is pretty big with a lot of information. And the people are all friendly. And most seem to understand. Well maybe I will see you on another forum.
With hugs xxx
Shelley anne
