ZACHARYKWH,
Thank you for posting here, and welcome to the forums. I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling like this, that must be really upsetting.
I also didn't get the captaincy I wanted in high school - our school ran a performance, and I wanted to create and lead this performance as I'm passionate about the arts, but instead somebody who had limited experience with performing arts but was less passive than me ended up being voted in as the captain, and I received a secondary role instead. I was devastated, but it ended up working in my favour as I got to choose and teach most of the arrangements for the musical ensembles anyway, and her creativity was beneficial for coming up with the overall performance theme.
I suppose this feeling represents how much you cared about this particular role, and that could be a testament to your passion for leadership, or supporting people, or whatever most attracted you to this role. When you've allowed yourself to feel that grief, it may be helpful to reflect on how rewarding it is to be passionate, as you can direct that passion towards other roles in the future. Being passionate is great. It gives you inspiration. It makes you excited about things. Unfortunately, the downside of this passion is that sometimes if things do not work in our favour, it can feel really devastating.
I hope this resonates with you, please feel free to keep chatting with us if you'd like, we're here to support you. And best of luck with any roles you apply for in the future. Try not to let this one set you back, there will be others, and perhaps some that you will enjoy more and be better suited to.
All the best, SB
