Thank you Pepper,
Yes, I can tell that my dog can see how depressed I am, by the concerned looks he gives me and his warm cuddles. He's a wonderful friend. Animals make the best friends. Even just a few minutes outside in my vegetable garden helps. Nature is so soothing and there is so much going on when you quietly stop to watch and also soothing is feeling the textures of the earth under bare feet. All these things can make my troubles slightly less taxing, even if just for a few moments.
Friends can also be a blessing. Just to unload the burden of your stress makes a great difference, especially when that friend is a caring and understanding one. I have a couple of them and I also confided, or rather broke down, to my sister, who informed me last night, that she had given it straight to my husband, about my state of mind and why I was feeling the way I was. I didn't see any change from my husband, but I also had a melt down to him, so at least he understands how unhappy I am. As I told LT, I don't enjoy conflict, so I have largely been keeping my feelings to myself, as much as I could manage and doing my best to tolerate, what to me has become, an intolerable situation. If I could see an end to it, I would be ok, but with the snowballing effect of ever taxing events, it just became too much to bear.
I do feel better for unloading my pent up stress and really appreciate the support of everyone at Beyond Blue. This is the first time I've ever felt so desparate to find the need to contact such an organisation, but I know you all do a wonderful job and have supported the cause in the past and certainly you have helped me somewhat, even though my problems are still current... so thank you all.
Best regards,
Stormrider
