Hi opossuming,
It’s lovely to have you on board. I suppose maybe just take your time to get a feel for the forums 🙂
Maybe you’ll find it helpful or maybe it’s not for you. Either way is okay although I certainly do hope you’ll get something out of this space here. I suppose it comes down to trial and error to see which supports work and which ones aren’t for you 🙂
You do sound rather lacklustre and very discontented, and your job seems to be getting you down quite a lot. It seems like you have a lot going on (e.g. wide circle of friends, diverse interests/hobbies, etc), which is great.
That said, it also seems like there’s little in life that seems to make you feel really passionate and “alive”... I get the feeling that, to a large extent, you’re just going through the motions...
Maybe things will become a little clearer after you see your psychologist/psychiatrist. In the mean time, it does seem like you’re finding your way back to you (so to speak)...
So I was wondering maybe if it would be helpful to review your job situation. Maybe you could write down pros and cons for each decision e.g. pros and cons to stay for another 2 years then take long service leave, pros and cons to look for another job, etc.
It doesn’t have to be a strict tally either e.g. 3 items in one pro list versus 1 item in another pro list doesn’t automatically mean the decision with 3 pros is better than 1 because you might value the 1 pro more than the 3 combined. I suppose the idea of a pro/con list (s) is to help you reflect and understand your own priorities...just a gentle suggestion.
I feel another option might be to throw caution to the wind, and go with your “gut” as people say...I feel there’s no right or wrong with decision making but it’s just about doing what works best for you...
If you’re feeling up to it, but no pressure or obligation, let us know how things have been for you since your first post 🙂
Kind and caring thoughts,
Pepper
