Hi there, I don't know where to start off by posting so I thought that I would introduce myself here.
I struggled with depression in the past but I have been feeling a lot better especially since 2018 onwards. My girlfriend had to move back to her native country recently due to the covid-19 pandemic and since then she has met a new guy there and wants to leave me for him. This has currently left me devastated that I could lose her so quickly to someone she has barely known for a month. I have tried to talk things through with her and she says she is confused, but I get the feeling that she is gravitating towards him.
This is the first time I have been with a girl (I am early 20s) and I also fear now that it will be hard to find someone in the future, since I am insecure about how I look (I was bullied at school) and I find it hard to connect with people easily, especially females.
I guess I was just hoping to connect with people here who might understand this type of experience and know how to get through the pain. As of now, I feel devastated and heartbroken for sure. I genuinely want her to be happy and move forward with her life, if this is best for her, but I feel alone and lost myself.
Also from reading some of the posts here, it makes me realise just how devastating it would be to lose someone the longer you know them. I only knew her for 2 years, but to be married to someone and build a life with them over many many years must truly be more painful than this. Even so, the pain I feel now is emphatic and difficult to process.
