Happy Llama, Sad Llama, Totally Bipolar Llama...

[guest_1242]

Hi all!

I'm Alice, ( the darker version of your regular Wonderland variety Alice.)

You can all just me Alice, or Ali, etc..

(or 'If you'll be my bodyguard,

I can be your long lost pal.

I can call you Betty,

And Betty when you call me

You can call me Al.')

My brain is a combination pinball machine and lyric/ quotation jukebox. A couple of words in the right context and just like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get... 😉

I'm a rapid cycling bipolar type 2 with a bunch of comorbid In-App-Purchases attached, and I swing harder than Sia does from a chandelier...

I'm broody, moody, depressed, angry,..

('I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way')

Yeah it's gets annoying pretty quickly...you should try it from this end. 😕

Guess I'll see you 'round...

(Cue Arnold....)

Alice.

[Kazzl]

Alice! What a pleasure to meet you! Welcome to the forum. Combination of a pinball machine and jukebox eh? What a great description - we could be related haha! 😃

Thing is hun 'we're not crazy, we're just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell. But stay a while and maybe then you'll see, a different side of me'. Name that song ...(hint, Matchbox 20, but I reckon you knew that). It's my favourite about myself.

So, how are you at the moment Alice? Are you OK? Must say you sound like a lot of fun to me, but I also know it's far from fun in our heads a lot of the time.

May I ask what treatment you are receiving? I'm keen to know more about living with bipolar. If you want to share, I'm here to listen. And if you don't, I'll just sing along with you if that's OK. Love singing - ageing wannabe rock chick me. And I love that Meredith Brooks song. And no, I do not feel ashamed either! And I hope you don't.

I have to get off to work shortly, but I really hope you'll come back to us again for a chat later.

Look after yourself today lovely Alice.

Kaz

[guest_1242]

Marsellus: 'Naw man, I'm pretty f*#kn' far from okay'.

It's been a long time since Alice returned to Wonderland, and time is ticking out...

Kazzl said:

Alice! What a pleasure to meet you! Welcome to the forum. Combination of a pinball machine and jukebox eh? What a great description - we could be related haha! 😃

Thing is hun 'we're not crazy, we're just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell. But stay a while and maybe then you'll see, a different side of me'. Name that song ...(hint, Matchbox 20, but I reckon you knew that). It's my favourite about myself.

So, how are you at the moment Alice? Are you OK? Must say you sound like a lot of fun to me, but I also know it's far from fun in our heads a lot of the time.

May I ask what treatment you are receiving? I'm keen to know more about living with bipolar. If you want to share, I'm here to listen. And if you don't, I'll just sing along with you if that's OK. Love singing - ageing wannabe rock chick me. And I love that Meredith Brooks song. And no, I do not feel ashamed either! And I hope you don't.

I have to get off to work shortly, but I really hope you'll come back to us again for a chat later.

Look after yourself today lovely Alice.

Kaz

[Kazzl]

Hey, talk to me lovely llama lady Alice - what's going on for you? Far from OK? Tell us more hun. Are you safe?

Kaz

[guest_1242]

"Yeah
I'm so cool, I'm so cool, I'm so cool"

Lol, irony. I crack me up. 🙂

"If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
...
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
....because tonight is just like any other night.."

Shut up Morrissey.

[guest_1242]

Hi Kazzl, you still around?

i admit, i thought this was a board I was on a couple of years back but they had mental health more subdivided, into afflictions of many kinds, icluding a specific one for bipolar.

this forum seems a lot more basic and generalised than the one I remember,

have they overhauled it recently, or am i just thinking of a different blue board?

that was a good forum, at the time I left they were trying to publish a book of art and poetry made by members called the bluebook or something...

good times.

[blondguy]

Hey Alice

Kazzl is still around. She just wanted to see if you are okay 🙂

You are not on your own

Good Times

Paul

[guest_1242]

Hi Paul.

The last post wasn't really a Kazzl specific question.

if you know, or chat to people who might, I wouldn't mind find out.

i remember a wise man, and a kind lady, and a pirate .

and a little schizophrenic girl who died alone and scared right in front of our eyes. Which is why I left.

not always good times.

[blondguy]

Hey Alice.....Now I understand...I have lost a very close friend to schizophrenia and actually watched his soul disappear before he died..

not good times......Im sorry alice...x

Paul

[Kazzl]

Hiya Alice! I'm not sure about the forum you mention, I don't think this is it, but I've only been around for a short while. I haven't met any pirates here yet, sadly, though I'd like to. But there's loads of wise men (and women) and kind ladies (and men) here. Will we do? Hope so. 😄

How are you today hun? What's today's song? I was singing Bitch to myself all day after you posted it. Great song. And for reasons unknown I've woken up with Walk on the Wild Side in my head ... do doodoo do doodoodoo do ...

Hey have you checked out any of the threads on the Community Board, there's one about favourite song lyrics, and loads of others. There's a cafe there too with heaps of great people, you're very welcome to join us if you'd like.

I work full time, so that's why I wasn't around when you were looking for me, I'm here most mornings and evenings though. But there's heaps of people around during the day if you want a chat.

Hope your day is full of happy songs today Alice! (Personally, I think Morrissey CDs make good frisbees, or ashtrays if you know how to melt them into shape. 😄😄)

Kaz

xx