Hi. I am feeling quite anxious and hope that sharing will help me to analyse and cope.
I have a small child and happy(ish) marriage, now five yrs in. We're full time employed, quite fortunate these days.
I think I've always had anxiety, or at least, suffered in some way. The ad on TV where the man is being talked down by his inner dialogue made me realise that always happens to me, but i didn't realise it could be anxiety. I thought it happens to everyone.
i recently transferred departments to take up a job with a boss who said I'd be transferred permanently, but its only temporary. I was told id be working on project X, but I'm not. Im being told now that the paperwork to make it a permanent move will be finalised soon but i still have the uncertainty of if it will be approved. I'm feeling a bit trapped, and like people haven't been following through with what they said they will do. I didn't seek out the transfer, or offer, but i could have refused..
The old area i left made me feel suffocated at the end of each day and i felt belittled at the way some people talked to me and each other. The new job does help me feel mentally healthier. I was miserable in old job, but don't feel miserable in current job. Thats partly why i said yes to chance to leave.
i am dealing with alot of uncertainty which makes me anxious. Im not good at speaking up for myself, and others are speaking for me without understanding the full picture. I have been on the verge of emotions and tears the past few days and haven't been able to get to sleep. I'm worried about losing pay, or job, and feel silly for taking risks when I could have stayed even though that wouldn't have been great for my mental health (maybe it wasn't the worst idea to leave that Environment). And the older i get, the more i feel like i cant put on a mask for the work day.... Mostly i feel scared at any prospect i can't provide for child
