Hi
I don't know where to begin, so here goes. I have currently been under both physical and emotional stress due to the fact that I wish to sell my home of over 22years. The pressure of maintaining my home along with doubts and insecurity flooding my mind, has worn me down. On top of that, I am feuding with my neighbour. For 22years I have lived with a bully and whining neighbour. Complains about the slightest thing or just gives me the eye. I cause no trouble and keep to myself. Before Christmas, my neighbour partially destroyed the new Nature Strip I paid for, she didn't apologise. I never said anything and put a temporary barrier up in order for the grass to re-grow. I couldn't get in touch with the culprit as she doesn't answer the door or phone. After that each night she would do something to the barrier. Halloween night, she destroyed the barrier under cover of darkness. She always does something to my property under darkness. I finally approached her, and she denied doing anything, even though my security camera doesn't lie. She always Gaslights! So, I left it. Chastising myself that I didn't tell her I caught her on camera, but cowardly walking away insulted, miserable and frustrated. A few days later, I caught her trying to pull out the lawn.
I lost my mind. Like a suppressed idiot of 22 years, I wrongly retaliated. I have tried over the years to talk to her, listen to her and be the better person, I lost control. I hate myself. I allowed myself to become a monster. I tried to apologies, but she just kept walking away. I wrote her an apology letter along with a card and posted it to her. She's having nothing to do with it. Now she's taking revenge on my property and spreading rumours. My neighbours hate me because of her gossip. She tells half-truths and plays the victim, in reality, she's the instigator and bully. I spoke to her daughter, and she said her mother was always a terrible person. I am feeling isolated, upset, broken hearted, lost and cannot understand why the neighbours turned on me, especially when I have done nothing to them over the years. Their gossip and turned heads truly devastate me. It hurts. I am hurting and have no defenses against bullies. I am so upset and sick to my stomach. I've been crying and truly do not understand how awful people can be.
