Thanks guys for your warm welcome.
So I was diagnosed with Dysphoric Disorder, GAD and Depression about 10 years ago. Its been up and down as it is, had a good doctor who left the state and since then I haven't really been able to find another GP who I feel is listening or even had an interest in mental health. I was on anti-depressants but have been off them for 2 years as they didn't seem to be helping much, I am considering trying different anti-depressant, although I have reservations. I was also on a medication which helped greatly but weaned off that 2 years ago also. So I guess I haven't been treated for these conditions for a couple of years really.
This year I have labelled 'hell year'. I am currently experiencing the worst anxiety I have ever dealt with. I have also been having a lot of physical symptoms which GP is saying "may be related to the anxiety condition", but I am a left feeling frustrated as I don't seem to be getting a definitive answer. I am constantly dizzy, experience ocular migraines frequently which present with no headache just vision disturbance and slurred speech, I wake with an overwhelming feeling of dread every day, I have nasty unwanted thoughts, I vomit frequently, my sleep is poor, the list does go on. I was sent for an MRI and a pituitary tumour was found. Of course I thought, well this is the answer to all my symptoms. Well it turns out it wasn't the answer, apparently its doing nothing, causing no symptoms and basically just sitting there, slowly growing. I am too scared to do any other testing after discovering the tumour, I am terrified any tests of any description will find other nasty things. Its feels crazy because I so want to feel better but I am so fearful of digging for answers. I am fearful of trying stronger anti depressants, fear fear fear! I feel like a shell of who I used to be. I can barely clean my house or write a shopping list, everything evokes panic. I have housing issues, Centrelink issues all of which I could have handled at one point in my life but not right now. I feel as though one more issue may break me. Anxiety and depression are so cruel and debilitating.
