I wrote this about how I was feeling. My mum said I should share as it might help others feel like they aren't alone.
I’m past the why me’s
I accept its just so
But I’m still stuck on why
A constant whispering blow
I’m tired of Doctors
An endless merry go round
No answers as to why
Their prescriptions an unbearable sound
Sometimes I ask
Is this just gods plan
To suffer my whole life
Walking through life on sand
My courage does grow
Though constantly I stumble
Its all a mental game
To my inner self I mumble
So what of that?
My frustration palpable
I’m trying so hard
My wisdom ever nimble
Yet what growth comes
When life is easy
I have all basic needs
We’re trained to want life breezy
Maybe I must just let go
Look for joy day to day
There is a lot to be grateful
When in the moment you stay
Then pain keeps me present
Keeps my eye on the Devine
Exercises my sensitivity
To more woes than just mine
I keep wary of distraction
Of swapping one problem for another
The intent is to move forward
Be unto myself a mother
I can do this
I will bear the load
For this is my special journey
So many beautiful views on this road
