2020 is not my year...

[BrokenBrain77]

I am sure a lot of people feel the same way with this but wtf 2020!?

Fires, Floods, CoVID, Job Issues, Marriage Issues, Friend Issues.... List just keeps growing month to month....

Ever feel like unpacking one thing opens up another and another and another? I have so much going on in my mind, I am worried to talk about it because I'm scared people will find I am not all together and judge me. Which goes against my own guidance because I know that if I talk, it can help me work through my issues.

Between family, relationship, friend and work issues, my life is an absolute mess. Top it off with me about to lose my job, I'm just blissfully sitting here watching my world around me fall apart waiting for a time I feel like it has "reset" so I can start rebuilding the minecraft world so to speak...

I feel like I have zero control on my life and what is going on and am going through what seems to be quite a destructive phase in the process.

I have started a MHP with my GP but haven't contacted the next step. I'm scared to unpack because the person I might see may talk about me to others. I have huge trust issues as information that is always promised "confidential" always has a way of getting out these days.

Argh...

Something positive to end the message though as I always try and see some good in life... I am alive. I am loved and I have things to get me by.

2020 can eat my waste maker.... Just saying...

Sorry... this was meant to be an introduction :S

I am me... I am a musician... I am a systems developer... I am a youth worker by job... I am married... I have one boy aged 12 who lives with Autism (but doesn't let it get him down... little legend!).

I don't drink, I am addicted to Nicorette, I am not at risk of harming myself 🙂 Just stressed, tired, over it atm

[geoff]

Hello BrokenBrain, a warm welcome to you and anyone else.

I doubt anyone would feel any different to how are feeling, 2020 is going to a year we'll be trying to explain to our young grandchildren what's happened to this most unusual year, and we're only halfway through it.

You shouldn't feel alone because it's going to change our day to day functions, how we greet people and how we're able to work.

When we are able to overcome anything major in our life, it changes, it's not the same it can't be, simply because we'll be in the same position, and this applies to many issues, including 2020.

In regards to the mental health plan, write down the problems you are struggling with, including printing out this comment, this makes it easier when the doctor/psychologist asks you 'how can I help you', it manages to get you over the first hurdle.

You love your son and that's a credit to you.

Geoff.

[white knight]

Hi B.B., welcome

Some of what you are enduring is more than acceptable to worry about like losing your job. However what some of us humans do is catastrophise our lives because we haven’t developed ourselves mentally to accept that this is life.

It is life that many things negatively occur one after the other. But there is also positives. Your “little legend” (your son) that you mentioned has autism, well you see a positive in him, his tenacity and fighting spirit. Great. Now apply that to other issues like-

• The bushfires- we are seeing injured wildlife being returned to the Bush. Investigations are underway to prevent such huge fires from repeating
• covid19- people now have a new appreciation for things they took for granted. People have a new level of empathy for each other and a “we’ll beat it” collective mentality I haven’t seen in my lifetime
• 2021 will be a better year
• you’re normally a positive thinker justvthings are piling up on you at this time- it will pass
• distance yourself from those people causing you issues atm

I join with Geoff in saying you are a proud parent and you have every reason to be.

TonyWK