1st timer-where do i begin?

[The_sentinel]

HI. Unsure if I should be here and don't know how it works really.

Feeling overwhelmed/worthless on a daily level. Married man 15+ yrs (2nd time), 2 kids, seem stuck in a rut. I seem to always see the negative in everything before the positive. I guess I'm a moody stubborn old fart. Things have not been going well lately at home and work. I feel embarrassed and ashamed at things happening to me recently. I am smart enough to realise I have depression but and most likely OCD but can't bring myself to go see my GP or seek any help. I have used work counselling previously but the generic responses I got did not help my personal circumstances in terms of daily changes. I'm financially crippled due to child support of kids from 1st broken marriage and have NO friends at all. I am very socially withdrawn and only know work colleagues. Each day seems a struggle but I don't see things changing. I'm at a loss what to do.

[geoff]

Hello The sentinel, thanks for coming to the site.

Please don't be afraid of booking an appointment to see your doctor, you need to be diagnosed so that the appropriate help can begin, I've had depression and had OCD for 58 years and if you are doing any symptoms of this latter illness it needs to be explained to you and how you shouldn't feel embarrassed or guilty.

This combined with depression makes your situation to be very difficult and I'm very sorry for you, but you could book a time when to see your doctor and we can then help you, in the meantime, let's have a chat about either of these.

I'll be here on and off until 10 am but going out shortly, but will certainly check when I come back.

Geoff.