Nervous breakdown. Someone to hear me

[Guest_9043]

Hi,

I have had a very severe nervous breakdown. It's been coming. I tried to take measures to stop it. It did not work. Mainly others creating a lot of stress for me. I booked myself in for a doctor's appointment today. I'm so scared to go.Im worried they are going to put me in hospital. A place I don't want to be. I feel like cancelling just on that alone. It will be an added stress I can't manage. I also have an emergency appointment with my therapist this morning. My doctor took me off a certain medication as she was lax to prescribe it. (New doctor) This medication would help, maybe I don't know. I'm also worried that the doctor won't listen to me or help me. I have to see her husband as she is fully booked today. I'm so frightened of everything. I know I am an absolute mess. Building support, I don't know how too. I'm trying. I just need a calm presence to help me relax a bit so some reassurance would be nice.

[Guest_9043]

Hi Grandy,

It's OK. We all have lives and I understand. Thank you regarding the television. I do not watch mainstream TV at all. I only use it with my Chromecast so I can watch what I choose to watch and what I like. As for the news I have not watched the news for a long time now nor do I read the news either. If I need to know about something I will. I am absolutely over hearing about the coronavirus and limit myself as much as possible hearing about it. If I want an update I can find one.

To clarify, sorry I wasn't clearer. I go over my day to see what I have achieved no matter how small. I only have started it because I honestly don't remember much and i guess it is a way for me to see that I am making some headway on something when I do not feel I am making any headway on anything at all. It does not always help but I still try. In saying that I might just see about these sleep stories particularly the man you mentioned.

In regards to my doctor, I am going to go. I have been thinking about it. I have seen her about four times so she is a new doctor still. I book online and forget I need to actually call to have a longer appointment if I need one. This will be a longer appointment so I will need to call tomorrow. I will take on your suggestions, thank you. They have been helpful. The thing is I am not sure if I am comfortable with this doctor. She is nice and an OK doctor. I am just thinking that sometimes she does not take me seriously enough and perhaps does not show a big interest in my mental health. I feel uncomfortable that she will not pay attention to the seriousness of what I have been through. She always just asks so what do you want me to do for you? I find that disconcerting at this point as I have enough trouble answering that question for myself everyday. I don't want to go in there and come out feeling just as lost and hopeless as I do when I go in and I have come out of one appt with her feeling like that. I cannot afford to feel that way again this time.

I really appreciate your responses, advice and also checking on me. I don't really have anyone I can talk too so I have found our chats very helpful. I agree there is a lot of useless stuff on the internet. If it is junk I don't read it, if it is good I read it. I have found something online very helpful, it is written by a therapist so I have saved that.

Kind caring hugs right back at you, You take care of yourself as well.

2quik

Take your time in responding, life can get busy.

[geoff]

Hello 2quik, I did reply back to you a few days ago, but will try once again when I gather my thoughts.

Take care.

Geoff.

[Andre_P]

Hi 2quick

Im Andre. I do not blame you for not watching the news everyday. It’s negative and definitely isn’t constructive on a long term basis.

I have anxiety. The hard part about mental illness is people who don’t have it simply don’t understand it to the full extent.

I don’t mean to disrespect any medical practitioners but if they haven’t physically been through a particular mental illness then they will never truely know what 1 goes through.

I suffer with with anxiety and my sleeping patterns are pretty up n down. My circadian rhythms out.

All I know is 1 thing. Focus on positive things and try and keep your mind busy enough (doing the things you like) without putting any pressure on yourself either. This way you can alleviate the symptoms of your mental illness while you work on finding peace 🙂.

[Guest_9043]

Hi Geoff,

I am sorry I did not see it unless you did not post it? All good, take your time 🙂

2quik

[Guest_9043]

Hi Andre,

I do not watch the news at all ever. It is negative and draining like you say and crowds my head as well with unnecessary things. I am sorry to hear you have anxiety and I can empathise with you as I also have anxiety.

Yes, unfortunately it is the case that one cannot understand until they have experienced it themselves. It takes a good person who wishes and seeks to truly understand and put themselves in your shoes. Medical practitioners are a dime a dozen, a good medical practitioner is like finding a diamond in the rough.

Sleep and anxiety go hand in hand. I really do feel for you and it is very challenging.

I am not sure what I like at the moment. I am finding my way but I have a lot of doubt and confusion. For a long time I have never really done anything I actually liked. So that is going to take time. Generally though very little negative and a tonne of positive is what I am looking for in life. Thank you for responding and sharing.

2quik.

[Andre_P]

I understand mate. Sometimes it’s hard to get the initiative or energy to even begin thinking about the things you like, let alone doing them.

I also have OCD and at times it can make me tired as hell as it stresses me soo much trying to fight it as my brain simply wont shut up lol. To be fair I am improving though.

That’s why I try n enjoy the company of my cat and rest my mind as much as possible when feeling stressed. Cats are very calming 🙂 (well most times lol).

Fatigue is something I gotta work on. I think when I set a goal it will minimise the fatigue. The mind is definitely powerful mate (for good or bad). I try and say good things over myself these days. I cut off old mates who disrespected me n quit drinking (except maybe a birthday drink).

Things will get better mate 👊👊