Hi there, I have chronic pain due to multiple skeletal issues and
fibromyalgia and have been on DSP for 5 years. I have just made it to 3
weeks clean of opioid pain medication - from high dose 'worst of the
worst' which I detoxed from 18 months ago w...
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Hi there, I have chronic pain due to multiple skeletal issues and
fibromyalgia and have been on DSP for 5 years. I have just made it to 3
weeks clean of opioid pain medication - from high dose 'worst of the
worst' which I detoxed from 18 months ago which were replaced by a well
known synthetic opioid that I was assured was non addictive. ( Not true.
) I got to where I am now by reducing, then stopped completely, last
dose on 30 June. I didn't have cravings to take the drug - just so over
it - so just had to ride out the withdrawal. So here I am at 3 weeks and
the physical withdrawal symptoms have passed but I'm experiencing the
full gamut of psychological symptoms - depression, anxiety, insomnia,
irritation, frustration, confusion, mood swings. And 'brain fog' - which
is really scary. Plus my pain levels are sky high - I'm only using
paracetamol for pain relief. I have diazepam as part of my normal
medication which was prescribed to help wth muscle cramps through my
spine, but have been using it cautiously to help with sleep and anxiety
issues. I have been really alarmed by the psychological issues that have
arisen. Dr Google (!) assures me that what I am going through is known
as Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome and may last from months to years.
Yikes. As I want to get my brain chemistry normalised and fully
functional again I'm reluctant to use any anti-depressants. Just wanted
to reach out here and see if anyone else has been through this and can
share their experience. I have had moments of not wanting to wake up
tomorrow, feelings of complete isolation ( I am a bit of a recluse -
people find chronic pain so difficult to deal with I have found) and
confusion that makes me wonder if my brain will ever get back to healthy
functioning. As I have recently moved house to a rural area where I
don't know anyone ( cant afford to live in the city any longer - savings
have run out) I have an appointment this afternoon with a new Dr. So we
will see how that goes. I ended up phoning a crisis hotline yesterday as
I felt like I had hit rock bottom. Todays not so bad, but its an
emotional roller coaster. Thanks for this space to express myself.