I thought I was a pretty strong character who has dealt with enormous
adversity. Sure my vulnerability has shown up and limited me many times,
sometimes I needed help too but what worries me the most is when I ask
for help and or specify my needs - m...
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I thought I was a pretty strong character who has dealt with enormous
adversity. Sure my vulnerability has shown up and limited me many times,
sometimes I needed help too but what worries me the most is when I ask
for help and or specify my needs - medical ppl ignore, dismiss it.
Saying this as I recently asked for counselling from a wonderful org but
they ignored my specific vulnerability, so I couldn't attend. My mental
health deteriorated. I dug deep, got some meds and then as I found a
small amount of strength I was hit with medical probs and my usual
lovely gp found the need to use the words: cancer, we are looking for
cancer which has spread thru your body, we want tests, tests, more
tests. The problem is I didn't want to be told like this, nor purse
tests until I could get a counsellor to help me deal with some
flashbacks. So, i am left determined that if i speak up i get worse
treatment, if i stay silent i allow more trauma on trauma. I have tried
a therapist a couple of years ago but realised maybe i am very odd, ppl
don't seem to know how to deal within a trauma informed context. Hence I
am weighing up, is it safer for me to be harmed and deal with it or
speak up and risk, based on recent experience, suffer additional harm on
top of the process, procedure? I wish medical ppl would see my strengths
and hear my voice.
When we can we go into see our Pshyciatrists?
