Hi I'm having a very rough patch.
Longtime sufferer of depression, anxiety. Diagnosed bipolar 10 yrs, and recently complex trauma. Have had a number of bad episodes over last 3 months but worst this weekend. Fallen apart.
Feel so affraid of everything, overwhelmed and petrified to point of confusion. Not coping with any stresses, everything sets me off, crying for 3 days in between sedation, thoughts of self harm and suicide is invading my brain like a swarm.
Living in bedroom. I have a beautiful toddler who is confused and I am so worried my mental health is having detrimental affect on him. Partner is so supportive but is at loss as to how to help. She's under great strain too. My worry about them is not helping.
Psychologist has recommended respite in hospital. Never navigated this hospital thing before.
I have restricted psych on private insurance, live in Melbourne. Unsure of options. Any advice on expected expenses or support recommendations, hospital experiences? Are there alternative s to hospital?
Also terrified on what to tell work as I think I'll have to take the week off. Financial pressures I'm the breadwinner.
Where to start when feeling so weird?
Thank you
Baron
