Hello rosiecat, it might be helpful if we had a bit more information from you... did your doctor really tell you not to come back, in a single session, after seeing him for ten years? What was the actual conversation?
What i do know is, part of getting well again means learning new skills, and making new habits to break old, unhealthy ones. Having a good relationship with a psychologist who is a good teacher and motivator is essential. This is a very personal relationship, and sometimes we will just not click with someone.
I can imagine that a psych would sometimes say to a patient that, for your own best interests, it doesn't seem as if we're making progress and that perhaps it would be best for you to try another type of therapy, or a different practitioner.
It can be very hard to make steps forward towards recovery, but challenging our negative, unhelpful thoughts and beliefs is a major part of it. For example, you say "nothing helps"... but you also say that you believe these feelings of despair will lift in a few days when you are thinking a bit clearer. This suggests to me that you have a greater awareness of your mind and body than you give yourself credit for. Perhaps a truer belief than "nothing helps" would be, "sometimes it feels like nothing is working, but I know from past experience that if I give myself a few days that this mood will shift and I will be better able to think about next steps". What do you think?
