I am truly struggling to grasp that my partner left me. We broke up because of how I was while depressed.
We had split and 3 months later
I went and sought professional help and was diagnosed with depression . I spoke to them about all the things I said and did, and learnt my thinking and reasonings about it all.
All these conversations with the professionals I had I told her about, told her how my brain was working at the time and how it’s not a reflection of what our relationship ever was.
I love her so much, and have been together for 11 years. But she won’t let me in completely. We are still in each others life’s, I still help her with things. She said she still cares for me. but because of my actions while I was depressed; the self sabotage - personal demons we broke up.
It hard because she knows that’s not who I am. That it’s a disease of the brain - I’m making changes and seeking help and talking to professionals. But, It’s getting harder and harder.
