Help needed

[Unsure77]

Hi

i recently walked out on my bi polar fiancé as it got abusive and nasty. I wish I had read Tony's post about the cuppa before doing so, I'm not a confrontational person at all, the is sure I cheated on her which I didn't as she contacted the person and was told the same thing, but still didn't believe either us. She told me she loved me and things would change every time I went back but never did. The last time I went back she hit me again so I walked. It's been nearly three weeks now I haven't heard from her. Her family hate me as they all think I cheated on her, she has told them I am a compulsive liar. I love and miss her so much.

have I made the right decision by leaving, not that I think I will ever see or hear from her again. She is all I have thought about since I left.

[Unsure77]

She stopped taking her medication about two or so months ago, that's when things started to get bad. But refused to see a therapist aswell thought she had it under control

[Unsure77]

We went to see a couples therapist once and I was made to look like the worst partner possible even though I was feeling that way because she was so upset and depressed and angry.

[Unsure77]

I miss my fiancé so much everyday seems to get harder and harder. I just wish I was more resilient to the anger and violence and she would beleive that I didn't cheat on her. I also know if I try contact her I will more than likely loose my family and friends and potentially never see my kids again.

What do I do?

[Guest9337]

Morning Unsure77.

I read you're finding days increasingly harder.

No matter how resilient you are, if it keeps getting harder, things will crash - lets avoid that!

My violent father would say "Clear the air son, let 'em have it."

I still agree with that as the way towards building resilience, the acknowledgment that "this is enough!".

What do we do?

Examine alternatives, think/feel about each one. Put our heart in the right place and act. Observe, reassess and refine going forward.

Don't Panic! That's a Douglas Adams quote from HitchHikers Guide to the Galaxy fyi.

[Unsure77]

Morning dng

i have a letter I have written her but I only want her to see it not her children, I want her to know that things would have been different if she had believed me. I left for my own safety but I'm so miserable and lost without her I just don't know what to do.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Unsure77,

We are so sorry to hear that you are feeling miserable and lost, it sounds like you are in a very difficult situation right now. We understand that this must be very overwhelming, so please know that you never have to go through this alone, and support is always here for you.

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Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.

[Guest9337]

Yo Unsure77. I'll put up options as I see them if you like, feel free to ignore or even report my post, or feedback 2 me.

u have letter. dont want her children to see.

do want her to know things could be different if she believes.

u left for safety, r miserable and lost now.

confused.

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That's some courageous stuff to confront... options...

1. give her the letter without any conditions. she could show her kids or not as she chooses.

2. write at the top of the letter "private and confidential for HER eyes only"

3. edit the current letter, so that it shows only what u are comfortable the kids also seeing.

4. keep being safe. so if you hand the letter over personally u need an ally there.

5. could post the letter OR, have the letter couriered to HER and only acceptable by her, needing her signature on it. Couriers do that kind of stuff all the time fyi.

6. what things/stuff outside of HER, used to inspire you, or used to make you happy or content?

7. options I/we haven't thought of yet.

[Unsure77]

Thanks dng

rhey are very confronting things for me to get through at the moment and your post is helpful, I have sent the letter via signature needed. I guess I wait for a reply or hope she even reads it.

thankyou for your help

[Guest9337]

you're most welcome. Do you want to chat about anything else or delve deeper? or...

dng

[Unsure77]

I am worried about a response, I didn't see my kids for about 4 months and I'm just starting to see them again which is great but my ex wife is being very difficult now because of all of this with my now ex fiancé . I am afraid if things work out with my fiancé I will loose my kids again, not just that I'm not convinced my fiancé will take her medication talk to a therapist and nothing will change.