Would you and how to tell your GP you self harm?

[LJpd81]

Recently I have been self harming. Im not sure if I'm allowed to say how though. Should I tell my doctor? And if I do , how do I tell her? She is quite approachable and lovely. The idea of telling her that I S/H, fills me with so much anxiety! How do I blurt that out? What would she do? I already am booked for 6 psychologist appointments and I have written it down as one of my reasons for attending. Any advice please?

Thanks very much.

[LJpd81]

Hi Harpbird. I'm so sorry for the late reply. I hope you're ok. I totally understand about snappy husbands. Mine does the same.

You have us for support. And the fact you didn't s/h is great.

[LJpd81]

I wrote a post hours ago. It has been app5. Hope you're ok

[LJpd81]

Sorry Harpbird. I wrote a post hours ago. It seemed to get lost.

I hope you're ok. Sorry for the late reply.

I think its great you haven't s/h lately.

I'm always here.

[Harpbird]

Thank you LJ your so kind. How can just showing someone were to tear off rego transfer papers to me being called stupid? Him slamming doors and don’t know how he didnt smash all the dinner dishes in the sink? I don’t get it. I have been Back to being so sad and down. He gets home from work like he did and said nothing. Life’s really sucky .

[Sophie_M]

Hi Harpbird, 

This sounds really stressful, and we’re sorry you’re having a difficult time at the moment. Please remember to reach out and use all the support you need during this time. The forums are here for you, and so are our counsellors on 1300 22 4636, or via webchat. If this behaviour is ever abusive, the number to call is 1800 Respect on 1800 737 732. If you ever feel unsafe, please call 000. 

We hope you're able to be kind to yourself, and to reach out to the support around you, as well as here. We hope you find some comfort and distraction around the forums, on this thread and on others.  

Kind regards, 

Sophie M 

[LJpd81]

I'm so sorry. I hope you're ok. I don't know why husbands think it’s ok to yell at us. Its not on.

Mine yelled at me Friday night cause I was drinking and I was already feeling depressed that day, and I ended up really sobbing and hurt myself. Him yelling is not the right approach for me. In fact it makes me resent him.

Every time I drink, my husband says , should you be drinking on mediation. I just say I'm allowed and he gives me a look of disgust. I'm supposed to drink less according to my doctor, cardiologist, psychologist and psychiatrist I saw. Am I listening, no.

I feel I'm in a dark place and don't know to get out.

Tomorrow is my 6th psychologist appointment. She has recommended 4 more sessions. What if I need more. I feel I might. I like seeing her. I know that sounds weird, but I feel better seeing her and I'm not ready to stop seeing her.

I've been emailing her my feelings and she likes that, as I talk more in my emails about my feelings , then in person. I’ve told her lots of personal feelings from over the years.

She tells me ways to stop harming and drinking, but it's like I'm sabataging myself on person. I stills/h, not as much though. And I'm still drinking. Even right now I am.

I told her in an email last night, while I was drinking, some rather very depressing, bad thoughts.

Also I haven't heard from the psychiatrist yet either. So much for my doctor marking my referral as urgent. Apparently they're busy, so it takes time. I haven't bothered to call though.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Ljpd81,

Thanks for posting this afternoon, 

We can hear your husband hasn't been very supportive and can imagine this must be very difficult on top of all the other difficulties you've experienced as of late. Do you think your partner would listen if you were to tell him that you don't appreciate being lectured and that this doesn't help you?

We're so glad you're enjoying seeing your psychologist. Depending on where you live, you may be eligible for more than 10 sessions covered by medicare. It must be best to check in with a GP about this. 

Please know you're always welcome to talk these feelings through with us. We're available anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 1pm-12am AEDT here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport 
 

[LJpd81]

Thank you. My husband is supportive, but he doesn't agree with me drinking at all. I need to tell him, yelling at me and telling me what to do, does not help at all.

I'm pretty sure I'm entitled to 20 sessions. That's what the psychiatrist at the hospital told me.

Thank you. I really appreciate Beyond Blue.

[Harpbird]

I got a referral for 10 sessions with psychologist and my GP said he can do another 10 if needed. Yeh LJ I have just about had enough. To top of H anger session Sunday afternoon. I had to see my GP to check my eye lid as I am certain I have a bcc on it, he did tell me it was nodular with irregular boarders . I asked him was is skin cancer again? He said he can’t be certain so is referring me to An eye specialist in jhh . I have had a couple melanomas, bcc and scc. When I got home from GP H asked how did it go ?,I think He thought I would have had to stay in car and get a Telehealth appointment. I said no he called me in and looks like they will remove my eye lid. H just says oh well that will look ugly. Gee thanks for the concern. So I just said I am going up to do moms shopping and will stay there the night. Atleast I am loved so much here.

[LJpd81]

Harpbird, I'm so sorry you're going through this. You will not look ugly. Your husband should be ashamed of himself and apologise and be supportive.

I hope you are ok.

I'm thinking, it sounds like we might be in the same area.

I had to have a covid test today at the hospital JHH. I was at a supermarket at the same time someone positive was there.Was so easy and quick. Unfortunately, I did have to cancel my psychologist appointment for today. She understood. I'm home isolating now.