Would you and how to tell your GP you self harm?

[LJpd81]

Recently I have been self harming. Im not sure if I'm allowed to say how though. Should I tell my doctor? And if I do , how do I tell her? She is quite approachable and lovely. The idea of telling her that I S/H, fills me with so much anxiety! How do I blurt that out? What would she do? I already am booked for 6 psychologist appointments and I have written it down as one of my reasons for attending. Any advice please?

Thanks very much.

[Sophie_M]

Hey LJpd81, 
 
We're so glad you could reach out to this community in such a difficult moment, please know that our community are here to listen and offer their kind support to you.  

It sounds like a really hard time, and we don't want you to feel alone dealing with this kind of uncertainty around your next appointment. Remember you can call our helpline on 1300 22 4636, at any time, or use the webchat. Our kind and understanding counsellors can work through these moments of anxiety and distress with you. You do not have to go it alone, we're here to help. You could also reach out to our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) who are also here for you 24/7, at anytime of the day or night. 

It's good to hear how the appointments have been going for you and others on this thread. It's not easy to share, so we really appreciate your bravery. We hope you're psychologist appointment goes ahead as planned, or remotely if that's another option for you, although less than ideal. Do let us know what happens, if you feel comfortable to. 

Kind regards,  

Sophie M 

[LJpd81]

I'm freaking out. I'm in the waiting room at the cardiologist.

But that's not it. I just emailed my psychologist and told her that I hate my life at the moment and that it ran through my mind aabout something bad and how. Now I'm super anxious. I would never do anything though.

[Sophie_M]

Hi LJpd81, 

We're sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time waiting for the cardiologist. We can understand that your anxiety levels would be on high alert and you need your psych to talk to. It can be difficult to enter into a serious appointment and not have the sense of being supported. Do you have someone with you, or could you call someone to be with you while you have this appointment? 

Please know that there are others you can speak to when your psych is not available. There's Beyond Blue Support Service, we available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. 

If at times things are very overwhelming, please get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467). 

We are here to support you, please continue to touch base with us and let us know how you are doing. 

[Harpbird]

Thank you Aaronsis’s, you have made a few good points I will try to take on.
LJ I am keeping everything crossed your cardiologist appointment goes well.
oh no LG I definitely don’t feel comfortable crying in my psychologist appointments, I try hard not to, but I am just so broken I can’t help it , can barely talk I cry that much. And yes it’s just so draining .
but I have 3 weeks before I see her again . My area went into lockdown at 5pm . The people have gone bonkers , my pregnant daughter wasn’t feeling well and left work early, she had to get dog food so called in the local supermarket, she ended up in a line to get to a checkout that was an hour wait, poor kid , she drunk a bottle of water and was totally busting for the loo. I Hope your doing ok tonight.

[LJpd81]

Thank you. I woke up with dark thoughts this morning and feeling depressed and teary.

My cardiologist appointment. I've been told I shouldn't have high blood pressure at my age, nearly 40 next month. He said I need to make lifestyle changes, reduce drinking. He called my doctor while I was there. He said I need some renal test done through my gp. And I have to back to my cardiologist next month for a heart ultrasound plus consultation with the cardiologist. So feeling super depressed and feeling, if I looked after myself, I wouldn't be in this position.

So then all the never ending covid stuff and 7 day lockdown. Was anxious about being told my psychologist appointment next week, would be via telehealth. So went home last time, so depressed and low.

My psychologist rung me this morning and she said her boss has allowed for me to come in for my appointment in person on Monday. I am so relieved. I couldn't do it at home. No privacy.

Doctor's Monday too. I wondering if I tell her about my dark thoughts. She did ask me to tell her if I had those thoughts. Was thinking maybe I write another letter.

[LJpd81]

Thanks so much. Hope you're doing well today Harpbird. Yes it is definitely hard to cry in front of someone. I find it difficult to let go. This morning , I felt teary and I can't even cry in front of my husband. I felt sad. He knew I was sad.

I hope you are ok in lockdown. I am too as of 5pm yesterday too. Will you still get to see your grand daughter?

It's terrible and so depressing.

[LJpd81]

If there's one thing, I didn't s/h yesterday. That's because I was out and busy and when i got home , I was emotionally drained and fatigued.

[Harpbird]

LJ lock down really don’t bother me as I am a home body, love being home. Even though I can’t physically do much, we got a couple of acreas so Atleast I have the space to get out and have space. A big plus my eldest daughter lives directly across the rd lol and has a jetty out the back, she has one of my almost 6 year old grandsons, so I’d say I be helping him catch a flatty lol. She has 8 weeks to go before I get another grandson . Yay I can’t wait. I did have my granddaughter but her mum come got her seeing she can’t work. Atleast I got a little sleep last night , I get absolutely none when the grandkids sleep over. I am petrified they will stop breath in there sleep.

hope your doing ok. Big hugs

[LJpd81]

I am a homebody too. I love being home. I watch all my TV shows. I guess it's just depressing there's nothing to look forward to. It's just work,home, medical appointments. And I am I can't see my family or best friend.

That's great your daughter lives so close. Have fun fishing. Hugs to you too x

[Harpbird]

That’s the only down side of lock down , meeting my friends for a cuppa. I am unable to work but support being an almost full time carer for my grandkids while there mums work till they start school . I think it’s harder work lol. Well I went over and gave the coo-wee call to my grandson, he comes out says what you doing back here? Cheeky. I said I am going down to catch dinner , oh gosh he couldn’t get his fishing gear quick enough. He caught 2 bream and was was huge , he was so excited. Atleast I got dinner he says to his mum as we gets back to the house. He loves fishing just as much as I do. But sometimes i am not sure it’s worth the pain I am in now . Taken my meds and hopefully they kick in .