Why do I do it

[Di76]

Im not sure im even posting this on the right forum. Please tell me if its not. Hi.... so... upfront.....I have not read through many posts. Im sorry. I just thought I needed an outlet. Dont even know where to begin. Im 44 years old. I have a great (although very stressful) job. 2 grown kids i love. 1 granddaughter I adore. Dating an amazing man for just over 7 yrs. Lost my sister 2 yrs ago from pancreatic cancer. That's when my life fell apart. The hurt is unbearable. Just the last few months.....I self harmed. I had no intention to end my life. I just maybe wanted physical pain to take away the emotional pain.
 

[therising]

Hi Di76

So glad you've met the challenge of sharing how you're feeling, with your family. I believe there are some things we simply can't manage on our own, such as navigating deeply emotional territory we've never traveled through before. As your family so lovingly act as your compass, regarding the way forward, I am hoping this new direction sets you on the path of great healing.

🙂

[Jstar49]

Hi Di,

Thats so good that you're getting help.

Let us know how you're going please? I know that seeing a professional isn't a cure-all, but it's a start. And if you have a good rapport with them, and they're reasonably good at what they do then it will be helpful. I even have found a regular counsellor has had good strategies for recovery.

Sometimes it can take a while to understand what's causing the feelings and how to recover, but things like walking, talking to trusted loved ones and taking time out to do what you used to enjoy, as well as self care strategies like doing nice things for yourself, can all help, in my experience.

Warm hugs,

J*