??? Whats wrong

Guest_4593 · ‎11-08-2020

Feeling nothing, im stepping out my comfort zone, taking risks. Trying to feel something but nothing i dont feel happy, joy no sense of excitement or fear.. just feel alone and sad and cry alot.

I was asked why i self harmed i said i dont know . And i dont really understand why i do. But thinking now hey its something to feel...
I have to wake up every morning and (GET UP) i have responsibilities like everyone and i have to pretend to everyone that im ok . Work cant have me half there id lose my job.. family annoys me to much for me to have them realise im not ok . So its all fake and pretend all day.. i have about 3 people who i can say im not ok 2 ..but this is been going on so long even i wanna leave and ignore myself. Im uncomfortable talking out loud or to professionals im not sure i will get help but i do think ill lose the 3 people i do have very soon . Maybe just need to pretend with them aswell but im drowning suffocating in myself and this sense of emptiness is so overwhelming i just come undone every night when im alone in my room

Guest_4593 · ‎28-10-2021

Few deaths in my life lately a few people on my mind, im doing my best being supportive trying to be there for people. I feel things more strongly than people i know.... Recently had a performance review at work and was told staff find me moody. I found that upsetting like people just see me and say what a grump. I was told try smiling more it gives a better impression .like im already not trying my hardest to act fine at work ..i hate being me, u get to a certain point in life when u look back and look forward and everything seems so empty and pointless. You realise you have never been happy and you never will be happy..than every day repeats itself

Guest_4593 · ‎26-12-2021

Feeling low suicidal and lifeline. Ran a script on me then told me my 30mins was up . Stuff u all I'm done trying noone cares I don't have anything . I'm done

Sophie_M · ‎26-12-2021

Hey Guest_4593

Sounds like you're struggling and that you feel like you have no support. We are here for you and encourage you to share whats been going on for you that led you to reach out to Lifeline tonight.

This time of the year is particularly difficult and not having anyone around can make things even harder for us. We are concerned for your well being so have sent a private message to you. Please check your inbox.

Know that support is available right now. You can call our counsellors on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with our friends the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

If you are wanting to act on thoughts of suicide or self harm, then this is an emergency and you should call 000 immediately.

Guest_4593 · ‎01-08-2022

Still nowhere and nobody .i get that shock ( everyone must get) i do my shopping a extra $100 is added for nothing more . I have talked abit about looking after people and the pressures i had, (im not a go with the flow person. Im very structured and all about routine.) And years now im adapting to what i have to deal with..i push down my feelings, and i struggle with everything about day to day living. I Didn't realize i would be in a position where i would say . How can i now afford to do this anymore . Im not worried anymore about having people under my roof anymore, im worried how i can afford it now ..everyday is a new struggle. Everyday i face dread Going to work, coming home, dealing with life. When i never wanted to live...I don't want to be here, i don't want anything

Sophie_M · ‎01-08-2022

Hey there,

We can hear you're dealing with a lot of pressure, and struggling day to day. We can imagine this must be such a heavy feeling to carry. We're really glad you shared this update with us, that takes a lot of strength.

Our team have reached out to you, and are always here for you on 1300 22 4636, or online. We'd love to chat and work out some next steps with you, and we're here 24/7.

Please know our community is here to offer their advice. Maybe you could share a bit more with them about what's going on for you. Is there anything that's helped you getting through these feelings recently? We're sure the community would love to hear it.

Thanks again, Guest, please keep reaching out here. We're listening.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

Guest_4593 · ‎23-08-2022

I haven't been me in years . I go up and very down .im now right back in the same situation i once was. And iv changed i won't go through it again i cant, Im already suffering, no sleep. No eating. Drinking to much. Dont wannna do this again, and i know I'm not willing to anymore . ..when do people know its time to call it quits. I feel like im trying harder than ever but don't know why somedays , when its all pointless.

Sophie_M · ‎23-08-2022

Hi Guest_4593

We're sorry to hear how much you've been struggling again, but we're glad you're here posting tonight, reaching out and staying connected. We're here for you & we will attempt reach out to you privately tonight if that's ok...

One of the most important things you've said in your post is that you go up and down. When we're struggling and really low in the darkness, it can be really hard to see the light and remember the up times, the better times. It's really tough.

Please remember that support is available - and if this is an emergency, please call 000 (triple zero), or present yourself to your nearest hospital emergency department for care.

Especially as you feel that somedays are harder than others, maybe it might be helpful to look at our 'Beyond Now' safety planning app when you're feeling up to it and use it to help you to stay safe when you need it most.

Don't ever hesitate to reach out and call us, or Lifeline or even the Suicide Call Back Service if you need to as well - we're all here for you!

Take care, stay safe and we hope to hear back from you soon.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

Guest_4593 · ‎15-09-2022

I hurt. I hurt myself. I feel nothing. I feel everything . I know im not alone with this feeling but im alone with this feeling everyday..i know i will be ok. But i know im not ok

Sophie_M · ‎16-09-2022

Hi there,

Thanks for sharing this update with us, Guest_4593. We can hear you've been dealing with some really difficult feelings so our team have reached out to check in, we hope that's ok. You can reach us on 1300 22 4636 if you'd like to connect with one of our team.

If you feel you may unable to stay safe or avoid acting on urges to hurt yourself at any point, please call 000 (triple zero), or present yourself to your nearest hospital emergency department for care.

Thanks again for sharing what's going on for you, Guest. You never know who is reading and feeling less alone because of it.

Kind regards,

Sophie M