The warmest of welcomes to you as you seek to find a very different way of living, one with a deeper sense of connection to life.
With the idea 'I'm not overly thrilled or excited by what I'm currently conscious of', something a little outside the square perhaps worth considering could involve 'how to create mind altering states of consciousness'. Something to Google, as a springboard into research. With you saying you've never used drugs, it's about exploring natural ways to have mind altering experiences. With just about every drug out there offering a side-effect (pure bliss, peace, heightened excitement, ecstasy etc), 'How to get the brain to take us into such states naturally?' becomes the question. I should add that exploring with caution, following reputable teachers and practices, is incredibly important. For example, managing the kind of breath work that can take us into a state of absolute peace, can lead to us passing out if we're not careful. There are guidelines, such as not driving a car while we're practicing it or having someone there with us while we're practicing.
While it may sound a bit out there, it's not too out there when considering a lot is about chemistry, biology, thought processing etc. Instead of ingesting external chemistry (a pill, for example), it's about learning how to manipulate and master internal chemistry. Sometimes it pays to be curious, 'What can I do with this brain that I have? Let's take it for a test drive'. Instead of taking it along the usual routes, it becomes about taking it into new territory and seeing what it can really do once you open it up.
