Wanting to not feel alone

[Katndog]

Basically the title sums it up. I’m in such disbelief what I go through every day (most days) with chronic suicidality and I can’t fathom that other people in the world out there are going through the same thing. are they? It feels so lonely that I find myself calling Lifeline just to tell somebody, because you can only really tell your friends sometimes. It’s not much of a conversation when every day you speak to them and you don’t want to be here. I’m wondering how others cope with the loneliness? It is truly one of the most painful things I’ve ever experienced in my life. I think because of not being able to speak openly about it with friends and family or in the public. It’s like I’m holding a secret in my head and it same time I’m trying to make good choices every day to keep myself here. At least if you’re illness is visible people know that you’re trying and suffering. There’s no way for people to know how much energy I put in to making good choices, to keeping alive, just staying safe.

[Coach Craig]

Dear Katndog
Thank you for reaching out, I can only imagine how much energy it takes for you to do this and am proud of you for reaching out to us and asking for help.
Covid has caused not only a pandemic of not only illness but mental health issues.

Mental Health is a chronic disease and your right with the fact that your suffering is not visible to others unless others are experiencing the same thing.
Have you thought of joining a cyber community, support group for those people experiencing the same thing.

Connection is very healing, don't discount your friends abilities to want to help "A problem shared is a problem halved"..

Please continue to use our 24 hour support service on 1300 22 4636, and one of our amazing counsellors will support you when you are becoming overwhelmed. Take care

Coach Craig.