Well I’m back again so I’m not sure if it’s a good or a bad thing I’m here.
I’ve had a lot of time off of all work since I last posted, I’ve been in bed since which I’m not sure if it’s been a good or a bad thing for my mental health.
I reached out to my Gp during an appointment for something separate, I felt it was the only way I could’ve said anything I don’t think I could’ve set an appointment specific for my
mental health as Id be too nervous anyway. Unfortunately even after asking for a mental health plan, we had to address the more pressing concern (and injury the reason I was in there) first so it was brushed off. I know it wasn’t his fault and it was my bad timing but it took a lot for me to ask for help in the first place and I don’t think I can do it again.
I know I can’t stay in bed everyday for much longer, I’m not sure why my family doesn’t just make me. (I know it’s not their responsibility and I don’t blame them) I’m sure seeing someone lay in bed 24/7 doesn’t strike them as normal.
this I honestly more of a rant post which is why it’s so unstructured I’m just out of options at this point.
another part of me thinks that because I didn’t set another appointment with my Gp for my mental health so soon after I mentioned it to him I’m not unwell enough, I’ve managed to survive this long that he will think that i obviously don’t need a plan. Maybe I don’t? I don’t know
it just it doesn’t feel like living right now I feel like I’m just scraping by.
