Tired

[MrsHouston]

It’s late and my kids are sleeping and my husband is sleeping next to me. Since everyone fell asleep I have been crying uncontrollably. I am exhausted. And I want to say out loud what I’ve only said to one person. I can’t handle it anymore. I just can’t do it, I’m not coping and I don’t want to. Because I’m exhausted.I don’t want to have to stick around to see how the last half of my life goes.

I have 3 girls. They are my joys, my life, my babies. I can’t even nearly understand how I could think about leaving them.

Does anyone get so tired that they are just giving up? Or I’m just too tired to think.

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[Sophie_M]

Hey MrsHouston,

Welcome to our forums and thank you for sharing what you are going through.  We're so sorry to hear you are exhausted and overwhelmed. We can really hear how tired you are and also how much love and care you have for your family. The fact you reached out here tonight shows that you want to be here and show up for yourself and your loved ones. We are so proud of you for taking the brave step in reaching out and grateful that you were able to share this with us.  Please know that you are in a safe, non-judgmental space where you can talk about whatever you're going through.

It sounds as though it has been a very overwhelming night for you and we'd love to offer our support.  Our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we are worried about you.

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

Please keep checking in here to let us know how you are whenever you feel up to it.  

[sunnyl20]

Hi MrsHouston,

Thank you for such an honest and open post. I am so sorry to hear that you are in such a dark place and feeling so drained. It can feel so frightening and isolating sometimes, but please know that you are not alone in what you are experiencing - many people experience these thoughts and feelings that you have mentioned. Would you feel able to book in an appointment with your GP or a trusted health professional to talk about what you are experiencing? You do not have to get through this alone - there is support available, including Lifeline (available 24 hours 7 days a week on 13 11 44, and you can speak anonymously if you prefer), and the Samaritans (also available 24/7 on 135 247, you can speak anonymously if you prefer). Can you identify anything in particular that has caused you to feel this way? Have you ever experienced these feelings in the past, and if so do you remember what helped you in that period?

Please take care, and do not hesitate to reach out at any time on these forums - we are here to listen and support you.