Suicidality and perimenopause

[Eagle Ray]

Has anyone else experienced severe suicidality in relation to perimenopause? Did anything particular help? There is apparently a strong association for some women.

 I had a major drop in oestrogen a year ago resulting in severe anxiety/depression/suicidal ideation then. It’s re-occurring now. I have complicating factors of c-ptsd and complicated grief. Saturday was the anniversary of my mother’s sudden and distressing death. I was extremely bad on Friday and early Saturday.

I’ve been calling helplines and had some practical help. It helps regulate me for a few hours then I start to disintegrate again. It’s a feeling of totally failing apart. I do have a psych appointment on Thursday and I’ve booked a counselling appointment with the Australian menopause society as well.

HRT may help but I have to look at how it will interact with my liver disease which can be a complicating factor. It’s a rare disease and not well understood or even known about by most medical practitioners. I just feel totally overwhelmed.

[Eagle Ray]

Hello dear indigo and Croix,

I’ve seen your new post indigo so happy to chat to you there. I think it’s good for me to lay this thread to rest, to release myself from it, so to speak. I also didn’t want to take up room in this section when there are people at risk who are posting and I’m not at risk now. I’m in quite a different place now. It’s hard to believe where I was at not that long ago and it feels like a parallel universe.

And thank you Croix. At this stage I won’t start a new thread but I’m happy to post on indigo’s new one. Yes, I found imagery, feelings, sensations coming back so I’m glad to move on. I do enjoy the Happy Memories thread which always helps 🙂

Thank you both so much for supporting me here and others who have too 🙏