Realisation

[ReachOut83]

This evening I had to get out of the house, and go for a coffee, or anything. So I went into this bar that was quite busy. I am not a big drinker, so I ordered a Coke Zero and sat at my table alone.

I tried to join in on a conversation at the table next to me, but they didn’t seem to be interested. I even offered to pay for someone’s drink, but they didn’t seem interested.

I realise now that I have no place in this world. My whole entire life all that I have wanted to do is to fit in and belong. Now I know that it is no longer possible, maybe it is for the best to write a letter to my mum, and put an end to my loneliness.

[Sophie_M]

Hey ReachOut83,

We are so glad you have reached out here tonight. We can hear how lonely and hopeless you are feeling at the moment and that you feel like you don't have a place in this world. We are so sorry you are experiencing such distressing thoughts and feelings. It sounds really challenging. We want you to know that we are here for you and that you are in a safe, non-judgmental space. We have also reached out to you privately to offer additional support.

Please know that even though you are feeling alone, you have support available. Any time you are feeling overwhelmed and need support, you can reach out to Beyond Blue's Support Service or Lifeline on 13 11 14. You might also like to check out the Suicide Call Back Service. You can call them 24/7 on 1300 659 467.

Remember if you are in immediate danger to yourself, this is an emergency and you must contact triple zero (000).

Please keep checking in here to let us know how you're doing, whenever you feel up to it.

[Ggrand]

Dear ReachOut 83,

Please don’t do that...loneliness sux, I know..I struggle with it nearly everyday...I did write a note to my children a few years ago now.....I had had enough...

Everyone has a place in this world...hard to agree with..

I thought about the devastation my children would have felt when they read the not to them....the way they would blame themselves....and then realised at least I do have a place in the world with them..I don’t see them much at all..in fact I would say in a blue moon I see them...but still I know they love me....and to me that was enough to get me through.....Your mum loves you...Maybe ring her up and chat to her if your not living at home....if you are living at home...give a hug, feel the love she has for you...then believe that you do have a place in this world.....and she needs you..your family needs you...and the world needs you..

If those people in the bar, didn’t want you to join in....that’s their big loss...not yours...

Do you have any interests or passions that you like doing...you probably heard this before but going to gently ask if you could join a hobby group that your interested in....With like minded people it may be easier to connect with them....

Our lovely Sophie has given you some great contact numbers if you need to talk things out with someone..I have a professional Counsellor that I chat to once a month and for me it does help some....You’re very welcome to talk to us and we will give you as much support and care that we can....but a professional is a great step forward to begin your journey towards wellness....

Please ReachOut...If you can...Please don’t hesitate to contact those numbers and organisations that Sophie has given you....I have used them in times of doubting my existence and they are very helpful and caring trained counsellors....

You are not alone ReachOut..we are here for you...

My kindest and most caring thoughts...

Grandy..