Not Coping Well

[Nat1998]

I feel different this time, a new low that genuinely scares me. i'm scared to be alone i feel so utterly flat. i have not been well mentally but today i got results back from a graduate position that i applied for and i didn't get one, i feel like that has tipped me over the edge. i have lost all motivation, i cannot feel optimistic even if i tried, i feel utterly hopeless for my future and i genuinely do not know how i am going to pull myself out of bed tomorrow morning to continue with the live i have to live. i just don't know what to do. i have no friends, i feel alone and isolated, i feel like a burden, usually when i feel down there is some hope but this time i feel nothing

[Sophie_M]

Hi Nat1998,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing your story with us here. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for support, you also never know who will read this post and feel less alone in their own experiences. 

We are sorry to hear that you have been feeling so hopeless for the future and so alone and isolated. We understand this must be such an awful feeling, especially since receiving the news about the graduate position. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

If you would like to talk to someone we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

We also strongly urge that in overwhelming moments you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it.

[smallwolf]

hi and welcome to the forums.

there are so many questions I would like to ask and to allow you to tell me your story. And if you feel up to it, perhaps you could tell me what you were studying etc., what sort of help you have available to you.

I am so sorry to hear about the graduate position. When you try your hardest to do something and to then be told you didn't make it. I wondered what I had done wrong, that I was not good enough. Is that how you feel?

If you want to hear more from me, or want to chat about something else, please know that I am listening. I will just sit beside you for the moment and we might work out some way to your future. Listening to you.

Tim

[Petal22]

Hi Nat1998,

Wellcome to our forums!

Sorry you have been feeling this way.

I understand mental health I had severe anxiety OCD I have now recovered from this condition thanks to the help of health professionals…

I didn’t want to be alone when I was in the grips of this condition.

Sorry you didn’t get the graduate position you applied for……. Maybe there is a better position waiting for you?

Is there any family that you can spend time with?

If you feel this way maybe you can make an appointment with your gp you could let your gp know how you have been feeling, you could do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist.

There is always hope, hang in there you will get through this…

Im here to chat

[Nat1998]

Hi everyone, I'm so sorry I've only read all these replies now. That post was my first one and I had kind of forgotten how to log back in/access the forum until now. Thank you so much for the replies, I wasn't expecting anyone to see it or reply. It has made me cry how nice all of them were and how they all listened to/& addressed what I had said. Thank you so, so much, just those replies have made a difference in my life right now.

[Nat1998]

Hi Tim,

Thank you so much for your lovely reply. Nursing is what I was studying, just finished up with everything so that is great.

Yes, that's exactly what I was feeling. Plagued with those awful thoughts.

Thank you so much for letting me know that you have listened and are listening and for replying such a lovely message to my post, It has put a smile on my face.

Nat

[Nat1998]

Thank you so much for your reply

[Nat1998]

Hi Petal22,

I apologise for my late reply, I had forgotten how to work the forums.

Thank you so much for your reply to my post.

I am living with my partner and he is great support which is fantastic. Yes, I have hopes that there is a better position out there for me, somewhere. I have been considering seeing my GP and doing something about my mental health.

Again, thank you so very much for your lovely reply.

Nat

[smallwolf]

Hello.

I know that it sucks not to get rejected like that. I know some smart person who either did not get into Uni or quit after a week and a bit. Or myself! I went down an alternative path. I can still be somewhat critical about that, but in the most part OK. I "had" to write a letter to my younger self - it was homework assigned by my psychologist. I guess the aim was/is to show me things turned out OK and I am not defined by thoughts about myself.

In the moment ... things hurt. I also see you have a dream and a goal to work towards. There is another way to reach that goal and just have to figure out what that is.