Need to get it out

[Makinupaname]

So, feeling unhappy, almost where I was a few months back where I contemplated ending it. I have kids and a fairly supportive partner if I would let him in. I can't put the pressure of what's in my head on people who know me. My head and heart feel so heavy. I have trouble coping with the kids. Coping with the fact that I was sexually abused by a stranger near a school and now I have a sex offender across from the school. There are so many thoughts, I don't know what to focus on. We can't afford to get help. I feel fat, worthless and it's a vicious cycle of drinking and eating and then fat shaming and depression. I would rather go for a walk or be outside but there is so much to do in the house, homework, cleaning, cooking, getting ready for tomoro. I don't even have time to do everything I need to do, let alone want to do. I try and have a minute to myself but them I feel guilty and worse because there is so much need from everyone else.

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome.

Firstly ... Sorry that it has been a while for you to get a reply.

I'm so sorry you're going through such a difficult time right now. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed and hopeless with everything you are dealing with at this time.

While things may seem bleak, there are still reasons for hope, even if they're hard to see right now.

Focus on taking things one day at a time, doing little things that bring you comfort or joy where you can. Sometimes... getting through the day is enough. You have so much strength inside you to have endured what you have. I believe you can make it through this dark time, even if it takes reaching out to a crisis line or counselor. You matter, and you deserve to feel better. Sending compassion your way.

It might sound like I ignored your post... I didn't. I read it. And if you wanted to talk about any part of what you wrote, or anything else, I'm listening.